Run from me darling

Twenty-Three

Supernatural-Barnes Courtney

Oh, what a shame
Your spirit never left
Possessed me like a demon
Made them worship at your bed

NINA

On the way back to Castiel's house. We talked about Trisha and how he wasn't the father and that was cleared. We talked about Johnny and his recovery and how both the past 4 days have been living hell on us.

"Nina.. I can't have kids. I had a vasectomy years ago. The baby is for sure not mine."

I didn't feel safe at Johnny's place and I missed Castiel so when he offered me to come back, I didn't hesitate to accept the offer. I thought I needed a little bit of space to figure things out but I was running away from what had happened. It was just so much to take in.

"I don't want to be just friends with you Nina. I want more than that but I can't promise you anything good out of myself. I feel like we are going around in circles with each other. I don't want anyone else but you. Can that just be enough for now?" I don't know why I think I can run away from him. I can't just be friends either and I can't think about the future because it is ruining what we have now.

"I'm sorry for always throwing the 'we can be friends' bullshit at you. I don't want to be just your friend either. I want more but it scares me. I've never felt like this towards anyone and I don't want to lose you and that makes me put my walls up." He reaches over and grabs one of my hands and laces it into his.

"Don't think about us ending before we begin. I'm not good with titles but whenever we are around someone, trust me. They'll know that I'm with you and you are with me. You can't run away everytime things get intense. This is new to me too. It was my first time having sex with someone with feelings." I didn't think about it like that.

"I'm sorry for running."

"Stop apologizing and just kiss me before I die." I lean into him and he grabs my face with his hand to pull me closer. He glazes my lips with his thumb before kissing me slowly and glamorously. We had so much to learn about each other and so much time to find out.

I'm going to stop trying to find out answers from my past. I don't want to uncover stuff that will put me in more danger. I'd rather not know. I'm going to put all my help and trust into helping Cas and going with what he thinks. I'm not going to leave his side until he wants me to.

"You don't think it is Marcus?" He shakes his head.

"But I heard you yelling at Johnny that it was his father's bullet. Why wouldn't that make him our top suspect." He looked out the window and something was bothering him.

"Johnny told me something that has thoughts going off in my head. He thought he saw my dad."

"That is impossible. Your dad got murdered. You told me that." Even if this was possible. Why was his dad hiding from him? Why was he after him? Why was he after me? That just doesn't make any sense.

"Johnny smokes a lot of weed"

"I know but you should've seen how scared he was. He was terrified. My father was a bothersome man. I don't want to think about him or this situation but we can't ignore it when you were threatened so violently."

"I heard his voice before though. I never knew of you until we met at your club. I'm sure I've never met your father either."

"He could've disguised himself as anyone for the past couple years. He was good at that. He would have made a whole new life and business for himself and now coming back to claim what was rightfully his." I kiss the top of his hand.