Redo 🔄 Hyunlix (2022) (1)

A Burn Of A Rose

◆○Hyunjin's Pov○◆
I watch Felix carefully as we are sitting in the back of his car. If you told me, 24 hours ago that the love of my life was going to come through that door offering dinner, I would have called you crazy. Its still hard to believe, and now here we are in a patch of grass about to fully discuss what happened.

"Well Felix, what would you like to know?" I tried to play it off cool but I have a feeling I know what he is talking about. But I suppose the light won't show until the dark seeps out.

He stares down at the grass then looks into my eyes. I can tell bringing this up hurts but it's not going to get any better.
"First of all, who was that friend?"

That friend...god he was a pain. After the break up I ditched all my friends because they were the cause of this and they weren't real friends. They just wanted to gossip and stick their nose where it doesn't belong.

"Well his name is Jaeyun, he is 24 years old now I think. Me and him were friends up until me and you broke up. After him spreading those lies, I couldn't stand to look him in the eyes afterwards. Me and him were in the same friend group so he was basically there because of each other's friends."

"Then, why did you want me there?" He looks at me confused but also I could tell his mind was full of question as he searched my face for maybe emotions.

"What do you mean?" I looked at him puzzled. I knew nothing about him coming to that restaurant, Jaeyun told me that he had a friend that he wanted me to meet. I thought that Felix was just there by coincidence.

"Uh your friend Wooyun told me that you wanted to meet with me along your friends as they were curious about me and you? Did you not know about it?"

I shaked my head no. "All that Jaehyun told me is there someone that he wants me to meet and that was it"

I ran my slender fingers through my black hair as my blood was starting to boil. It made me want to go over to where those guys are and punch the hell out of them. But it's no use now as it's been three years since then.

"So what were you doing at night with work? Was it actually work?" He looks me in my eyes as he must be questioning everything.

The truth is I was working hard to get an apartment with Felix once we graduated. I wanted to make sure he was happy and safe. His father was against him being gay.

Before this night is over, I want to make sure he is safe. If not, I can talk with my landlord tomorrow to see if there is any openings.

I scanned his thin small hands for any bruises. And sure enough, there was. Damn it, why didn't I notice that and go to his house or something?

•◇Felix's Pov◇•
I watched him as he looks down at my hands. Worry washed over his face, he snaps out of it and looks into my eyes. I felt like there is a fire trickling in my veins as his eyes are on me as if he is staring into my soul.

"Well I was working night shifts, yes. I was doing that for a reason. It was never to get away from you. Every second of the day I was thinking about you, I was saving up for an apartment for us once we graduated. I was waiting for when I was stable financially enough to do so. But I didn't know if you were ready for that either." He looks up at the twinkling stars in the sky and sighed. "God I wish things could have gone different"

I could tell that he is lightly distant but that is because I know it's because his emotions are overwhelming him. I can't believe even at that age, he was thinking about us and the future. But then why wouldn't he promise anything?

"Was any of the things that he said true?" This is the moment of truth because it might have been me that fucked this all up in the end.

He grips the grass tightly as I could hear the roots coming up frim the ground a little bit. I put my hand lightly onto his to calm him down some. His gaze soften as he smiles a little as he was looking down at my hand on his.

"No, none of what he said was true. I kissed a girl once but I knew at that moment that I couldn't date girls.
I don't cheat ever, I never have believed in that kind of thing. And as for the promises, I didn't do that because I was afraid if I did so, that you would slip away from my fingertips as nothing is guaranteed. But now I realised how crazy that was because in the end, you still slipped through my life like quick sand. I never should have gotten mad. I should have said something immediately but I was too caught in my head that day."

I should have trusted this man more and not walked away. But as people, we have matured and aged. Maybe a redo would be good for us, But not now. Not until he's ready.

All the memories we could have been making throughout these years if I hadn't been so stupid and belived everything that guy said. "I'm sorry Hyunjin. You didn't deserve to be treated like that. I was in the wrong, I should have stayed and listen to what you had to say. I was arrogant. Please I hope you forgive me."

He pulls me into a tight hug as his arms are wrapped around my waist and his hands lightly gripping my shirt as they shake. His chest rises and fall unsteadily against my chest as his face was buried in my shoulder as he started to cry. I stroke the back of his head as I whisper to him "I'm so sorry. It will be okay" I feel tears start to form in my eyes and slowly slip down my cheeks.

After pulling ourselves together, I walked to my unlocked truck and grabbed a red rose and the lighter from my dash. And no, I don't smoke only my coworker does.

I walked back to where Hyunjin was then sat down beside him. I hold the rose and lit the lighter "This symbolizes the past, meaning this is a new chapter of whatever may come and to let the past lie in ashes" I lit the flower and it goes up orange flames. I toss it into the grass and stomped the fire out.

Hyunjin smirks "Cheers to new beginnings" What is he going to cheer with?