My Unwritten Piece

How do I worship?

So, this question popped up in my head;

How do you worship?

When I was a baby Christian, I was hungry for God (Well, until now) and I obeyed Him at all cost. I used to view my righteous deeds as something that gives me pride to myself. So, I worshiped Him in that season thinking how good I was when He met me. I was worshipping Him for making me good, better, and faithful. I was worshipping Him for all the good things He has done for me.

But, that perspective withdrew from me when God let me fail. When God showed me how weak I am without Him. I begun to worship God as a person who cannot do something on her own. I begun to worship God as the same nobody. I begun to worship God without thinking the things that I did for me to be good. Because of this particular season, I realized how nothing I am. Doing good things to be deserving and to receive favor from God are not our course. Our reward is Jesus! And what's beautiful is, we are already are favored, enough, loved, forgiven. That's why I am here. That's why I changed. That's why I am better. That's why God did not give up on me.

I used to take heed to my righteousness and I thought you have to do good works before praising God. I pictured it as a requirements. Which is, wrong.

So, how do I praise God?

I sit, play a worship song, close my eyes and raise my hands. Picturing myself as a messy, nobody person when He first found me. Because in that way? I'll picture His love, kindness, power and faithfulness in my mind instead of myself.