Jade
"I need some time, Jade."
"Please don't do this again..." I begged, looking into Perrie's hurt eyes.
I fucked up. Again.
"Don't make this harder. Please?" She asked, her eyes starting to water.
"Perrie, don't do this." I shook my head. "I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!"
"Stop!" She cried. "I know! I just... I can't deal with this right now!"
"Please, baby!" I cried, eyes filling with tears, my worst fear coming true. "I need you."
"I'm still here... I just need some time to process all of this." She replied.
"Why do you need me to leave? We can—" I started.
"Jade, please." She said, tears streaming down her face.
So were mine at that point.
"Perrie, you promised!" I cried. It felt like someone had their hand in my chest, pulling at my heart. "You said you wouldn't leave! You promised! You said this meant something to you!"
"It does! I'm not leaving!" She cried.
"You making me leave is the same thing! Only it's a coward move!" I yelled.
"What?!" She scoffed.
"You don't want to be the bad guy. You don't want to admit to yourself that I told you what I was afraid of, and you promised me it wouldn't happen, but here it is happening. You don't want to admit that you lied to my face! That you broke your promise! That even though I told you I was scared shitless of you leaving me, and you promised you wouldn't, you are!" I yelled.
"I'm not! I just said that I need a break!" She yelled.
"So now it's a break? For how long?" I asked.
"Until I process what you just told me!" She replied.
"I'm not understanding why I need to be gone for that? Is it hard for you to look at me?" I asked, noticing she hasn't once since we started arguing.
"You have another baby!" She yelled. "I'm having another baby! That's a lot to process!"
"I can't believe this. I can't believe you right now." I shook my head. "Are you serious?"
"Yes, Jade! I am!" She yelled.
"I'm standing here telling you right now, in case it wasn't clear to you, you are hurting me. Right now. You're pushing me away over a mistake I made years ago when we weren't even together, and it hurts like hell." I said, blinking tears out of my eyes.
"A mistake that's going to change our lives forever, Jade! Just give me some time to process it!" She yelled.
"I'm not leaving my baby because YOU don't know what you want!" I yelled.
"You've made that clear." She mumbled.
"What the fuck is that supposed to mean?!" I yelled. "I'm talking about Zahra! I would've never gotten a fucking DNA—"
"Mommy?"
I stopped and took a deep breath when I saw Zahra standing in the doorway, hugging her teddy bear and looking scared.
"Hi, princess." I said softly, still trying to calm my breathing down.
Perrie slammed the bathroom door, and I swear I wanted to kick it in. Instead, I kneeled down and picked up my baby girl.
