amber awoke to the sun pouring through the clear curtains, and she looked down to jake, who was still snuggling up to her.
she smiled and ran her fingers through his hair, and eventually his eyelids fluttered open slowly.
"good morning." amber said.
jake looked up to amber,
"wh-what are you doing here?" he asked her.
"well a very drunken jake said to me that he wanted me to stay, and so i did." amber explained.
jake nodded slowly, resting his head back against ambers body.
"what did i say last night, amber?" jake asked.
"don't worry about what you said, jake." she said.
jake frowned, "okay."
the two stayed like that for a few minutes — amber running her fingers through jakes hair while he traced shapes on amber's hand with his finger.
she liked how she felt when she was around jake.
there was this sense of calmness, she couldn't quite explain it, but it was different to when she were around josh.
she'd only hope that this feeling would last forever.
"oh- i think i'm gonna be sick." jake said, quickly jumping out of his bed and bolting for the bathroom.
amber quickly followed him, pulling his hair back as he puked into the toilet bowl. amber pulled the scrunchie of her wrist and pulled jakes hair into a bun.
she rubbed his back soothingly as he vomited, and eventually he wiped his mouth with the toilet appear and flushed the toilet.
"i'll get you some water." amber said, standing up and going back into the bedroom.
amber found a glass on a table and then filled it up with water from the bathroom tap, crouching down as she handed it to jake.
"why are you taking care of me, amber?" jake said after a long gulp.
"because i care about you." amber said, pushing a piece of hair away from jakes face.
"i just... i don't understand. you treat me like this, you give me this hope, and yet you choose josh." jake said.
amber looked away from jake, "i- uh, you need some panadol... i have some in my bag, i'll go get it."
as amber was about to stand up, she was pulled back down by jake.
"amber... i just don't understand." jake said, his sad eyes looking into hers.
amber sighed and crouched back down next to jake.
"you're putting me in a difficult situation, jake. please don't do this." she said, and she watched his face drop even more.
"can't you just tell me?" jake said, "tell me what you want."
"i'm not so sure of that myself." amber said.
she watched him nod and lean against the wall beside him.
"being torn between the two of you isn't right. someone will be hurt, and i can't stand seeing you hurt." amber said, thinking back to the events of last night.
"wh-what do you mean amber?" jake asked.
amber looked up to the roof, looking away from him so she could explain what she was feeling fully.
"when i came into your room last night you were crying jake... over me. i can't ever stand seeing you like that again. and knowing that i caused that made me feel so guilty, and i don't ever want to hurt you, i can't- i-" amber began to tear up as she spoke, and she quickly stood up, looking away from jake in an attempt to suppress her emotions.
"amber..." jake said, "it's not your fault, i just can't handle rejection, okay?"
"i haven't rejected you jake, and you never even told me your true feelings in the first place." she said.
"what about josh?" jake asked, "you guys went out last night."
"we did, but i'm beginning to think that being so close to either of you is going to be an issue. i just think i'd rather have none of you than hurt either of you." she said.
"amber..." jake said, standing up and touching her shoulder slightly, but she moved away.
"jake... i just, i need time..." amber said, "i don't want either of you to hurt and i don't want to be the cause of it..."
"i'm sorry amber... i didn't mean for any of it to end up like this, truly." jake said, his voice cracking,
he moved closer to her again, but she stepped back.
"i think it's best if i stay by myself. i don't deserve either of you and i can't bare hurting any of you." amber said, looking into jakes eyes.
"i just can't believe that this has happened only after a few weeks... we haven't even known each other that long."
jake bit his lip, "i didn't expect it, it came as a surprise."
jake and amber held eye contact, before she excused herself and with that, turning and walking away, leaving his hotel room and going back into her own.
jake sat on his bed and rubbed his face.
how could he let this happen?
he never intended for her to become so affected by this... if only he had just backed off, maybe this would've never happened.
it would break his heart watching her with josh.
how could he live like that?
watching from afar as his brother lives his life with the one that he loves.
but if she were happy, then jake would be too, right?
jake then began pacing around the room.
what could he do to fix this?
after a few minutes of contemplation, he finally came to a solution.
jake were to keep his distance from amber. he wasn't going to do anything that would make her feel stressed.
although amber said to jake that she thought of him all the time, that he might have won her over... he knows that deep down, if she made that decision, that if she chose josh, she had made the better decision.
but the thing is...
does amber want to be in a relationship with josh?
or would she rather be with jake?
maybe she would just deal with being by herself. she couldn't bare the pain.
and to think she's only known them for a few weeks.
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rockstar | gvf
Fanfictionamberlynn was an australian rock musician, in a band that was rising in popularity and unexpectedly fast. she didn't expect such a reaction from their debut album 'shiver' but she was ultimately proven wrong when she was suddenly pulled into the wh...
