Sacrifice

Confession

Waking up with a start, I look to see where I'm at. Feeling as that I'm on a hammock I realize I'm in the Men's Quarters. Once I get fully get my bearings, I remember what happened prior to me falling asleep. The argument with Luffy replaying in my min d as I glancd down at my bandaged hands. He's going to die? Sniffling quitely, I slowly get up and head to the deck. Walking out, I look over to see Robin talking with Nami. She looks up at thw noicse of the door opening and looks at m with concered eyes. I glance at her then to the door that holds the person bringing me so much pain. She nods understadning and walks towards me to help give me courage to go see him again. Glancing at her again, she slowly starts walking next to me and I take a deep breath. As we reach the door, she looks at me with strong eyes as a way to say 'You got this' and pats my shoulder. Usually I would dance around her with heart eyes but right now, I can barely breath.

With trembling hands I open the infirmary door and walk in. Closing the door behind me, I lock it as well. Gulping harshly I walk over to sit on the edge of his bed instead of sitting on the wooden chair next to him. I bring my knees to my chest resting my chin on them. I close my eyes sighing as I begin to get what I need to say off my chest.

"I-I keep trying to start this conversation as easy as I can. I know there's a chance you may hear me and not remember or not hear me at all. Seeing how your health is decresasing quickly now though, I would be fine with you just opening your eyes at this point. Y-You have to. I know we argue a lot. And we hit each other. And insult each other. I miss it you know? It's hard knowing that someone who has always been by my side for as long as we have is currently fighting for his life. I know I pissed you off all the time. I always had to try to get the last word but now, in this position, it's the last th-thing I wanted." Wiping my tears away I'm no longer able to stop the words coming out of my mouth.

"Y-You're so damn stubborn you Marimo! You had to play the hero didn't you?! And then had the audacity to say that the crew needs me more then you? That is the dumbest lie I've ever heard. This crew would be nothing without you and Luffy. You want to become the world's strongest swordsman. How are you going to complete that dream 6ft under the ground?! Y-You pushed me out of the way. Sacrificed yourself again for the sake of you nakama. But still. This wasn't supposed to happen. No, it should've been me. You pushed me out of the way and now you're paying the price. Please wake up. I haven't even told you tht I loved you yet..." I feel myself rubbing his hand between mine sniffling as tears streamed down my face. I finally said it out loud. I felt a weight being released from my shoulder while another one was added on.

"I-I don't like knowing you effect me this much. B-But you do. I want you here with me. On the Sunny. Happily napping away or training without a care in the world. Z-Zoro. I love you. I-I have lost many things throughout my life. I was alone before. I'm n-not now. I-I'm strong and can handle myself even when fighting you. Y-You're all I ever wanted. Y-Y-You're all I-I ever need. Pl-Please......You c-cannot l-leave me h-here." At this point I am hysterical. Gripping onto his hand while keepiing myself away from facing him. I bury my face deeper into my knees and let the sobs freely come out. Trembling morem I grip his hand even harder while muttering over and over "Please. Don't leave me. Don't let me be alone again." While I'm trying keep myself from sinking into a panic attack, I fail to notice the tears slowly making their way down the left side of Zoro's face.