Sacrifice

"Normal"

I stay sitting in the same spot I collapsed in for a while. The cold sea air blowing past me as I sit there staring out into nothing. I don't know long I was out there by myself until I hear soft footsteps break me out of the trance. I hear a small gasp come from the person walking towards me and their footsteps speed up. I keep looking forward with a blank expression on my face.

"What happened? Don't tell me he actually rejected you?" I hear Robin say quietly. I let out a shaky breath while shaking my head to tell her no. I hear more movement next to me and feel a warm hand be placed on my shoulder. "H-He forgot. He forgot everything that we said. He doesn't remember the confession or anything anyone said to him. He said everything is just jumbled in his head like everyone is talking at once." I tell her just above whisper. I feel mysef start to shake again thinking about the past event that happened. "I actually got my hopes up thinking that he was gonna be happy and everything would be okay, but he acted just like he did before. He made remarks about how I was gonna be happy because I could take his spot when he was gone. I-I got so mad at that. I got up so fast made an angry remark back and just walked out. I've been sitting here ever since." Hearing the wavering in my voice made me cringe internally. I sound so pathetic. A heartbroken idiot who thought they could live happily ever after.

"I'm sorry Sanji. Even I didn't know that could happen." I nod my head at her response. I tighten my arms around my legs feeling a slight chill go through my body. "You should go to get some rest. No one knows what's in store for tomorrow" I hear Robin say. I feel her make her get up and her quiet footsteps walk towards the Womens dorm. Before going in, She turns to look at me over her shoulder. "Oh and don't worry about those dishes. I had them taken care of while we were talking." I turn my head to see the plates gone and probably put away already back in the galley. "Thank you" I tell her as she smiles and walks into the room.

Realizing that I still have a job to do in the morning, I slowly get up and make my way to bed. I open the door to see everyone else asleep. I walk towards my hammock getting ready to lay down. I should change into actual pajamas but, I lack the need to truly care at the moment. Once I lay down, I just begin staring at the ceiling above me. As happy as I was that Zoro is okay, it hurts knowing it's going to be how it was before. Fights, anger, insults. Everything I hoped would die down when he awoke. Sighing, I close my eyes to try to get some sort of sleep. After who knows how long, I feel myself slipping into unconciousness.

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Waking up numb almost feels routine now. I get up quietly making sure to not wake up anyone as I leave. I walk out and look around me seeing the sun just coming up from the horizon. I make my way into the galley to start on breakfast before people start waking up. I get out eggs, bacon, potatoes and things to make pancakes. With everything out, I start making everything almost mechanically.

I hear the door open and a subtely scent of flowers enter the room. "Good morning Robin." I turn to see her making her way towards her seat. "How are you doing Sanji?" I stay monotone at her question and say, "Everything's fine. Just finishing breakfast." She starts to ask another question when a loud yell can be heard barreling towards the galley doors.

"SAAAAAAAAAANJIIIIIIII FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD" Our obnoxious captain screams as he bursts through the door. "It'll be done in a mintue. Just sit there and wait." I see Luffy glance at me curiously probably wondering why I didn't try to kick him out. Frankly, I just didn't have the motivation to do any sort of fighting at the moment. I see him sit down and keep making subtle glances towards me. I continue with breakfast as the galley starts getting louder and louder as more people come in. I keep my back turned knowing its' going to be completely full soon. Hearing as almost everyone is here, I start plating the food as I hear the door open one more time.

"Hey Shitty Cook. I can smell the crap you call food from out on the deck." After the statment was said, my eyes widen at the voice. I make eye contact with Robin and Luffy as they stare at me with eyes of concern when I start turning around with plates in my hand. "Sorry Moss-Head. If you don't want to eat this tell me what else I can make." After my statment, the whole galley goes silent. I see Chopper make his way towards Zoro about the yell at him for probably being up already but also stopped at my response. Everyone with either eyes on me or on Zoro to see what he will say back. I look at his face seeing his eyes widen at my statement. I roll my eyes at the shock on his face. I go back to plate the rest of the food and set it on the table. Seeing as I wasn't going to get a response, I begin walking out the door. "Once you guys are done just stack up the plates and I will get them when you guys are done. Since the moron swordsman didn't answer me, he's eating this and will like it." Right as I slam the door I hear Zoro yell out, "Oh go to hell you shitty cook!" I keep my back turned from galley and make my way to go up in the crows nest. Once I make it up there, I pull out a cigarette and light it. Inhaling, I feel a little bit of the stress weighing on my shoulders leave.

I turn to face the window and stare out to admire the vast sea infront of me. I curl my legs up to my chest and rest my chin on top of them. I forgot Luffy knows about the whole situation. No wonder he looked as concerned as Robin. He better not say anything or I will kick him back to the East Blue. As my cigarette is burning out, I take one last breath of it and set it into the small ashtray on the ledge of the window. I continue to stare out the window when my thoughts still are running haywire in my head. Will it always be like this? I guess everything was too good to be true. Everything happens for a reason. I guess us being together wasn't supposed to happen. Looks like we just have to go back to........normal.