I was 16 that time na nag decide ako na mag boyfriend. I was so curious kung ano yung feeling ng pinapakilig ka at habang naghuhugas ng pinggan napapangiti ka nalang. Na impluwensiyahan rin yata ako ng mga kaibigan ko kaya gusto ko ring subukan.
I had a boyfriend when I was 17. Sinagot ko siya agad. I don't know ,feel ko lang. Natatawa ako sa sarili ko.
I remembered what he said when I decided to broke up with him one day. I'm 19 years old that time.
"No, please, I can't. Hindi ko kaya. Mamatay ako kapag hindi kita kasama. "
That was his line. I don't know but I laughed when I heard him saying like that. I can tell that he's not yet mature. 19 years old is still immature for me.
He chatted me everyday in facebook and followed me in school because he don't want to accept the fact that I broke up with him. I felt a little spang in my chest. I don't know if he meant that. I just laughed that time.
One month had passed and he stopped from doing that. I thought aabot pa ng years bago siya tumigil.
I know years from now ,he will find someone. Someone who will be with him forever.
I smiled ng natapos na 'yung ceremony. I grabbed my bag and decided to leave the hall.
That boy years ago is a man now. I stand and stared to the groom and bride. My ex and my close friend in high school.
"Look at you. You will die ,huh?" I whispered. He's obviously alive. He's still breathing. Nakaya niya. 'Yun naman talaga dapat.
May mga bagay na inaakala mong hindi mo kaya pero kaya mo naman talaga. With your immature mindset ,you will not grow. But if you're willing to let go of the things that too early to handle and not really for you, it might be good. You might just see yourself, growing and becoming a better person. Dahil kung para sayo naman talaga ,kahit I let go mo, babalik at babalik naman 'yan sayo.
