.Her imperfect partner.?

28. busy day

Eliana's pov

I don't know what is up with me going to bar along with Kiara would be messy what if i got drunk and kiss her or something , so I decided to change the plan and we went on dinner.
Everything was going good, she seemed happy and was looking really georgeous and her face glowed in dim light.

Then we went on to dance , i kept her closer and we were dancing to some romantic melody, and i was so lost in it , it felt really nice to dance with her , Her pellite arms, i don't know what to do i felt like we were the only couple in the room , holding her pressed on to my body really felt good , no it was fucking good that i want to rip her dress of and feel all of her body, there was lust forming in my eyes , and she saw it ,she too felt it i know. she kissed me i got struck for a moment and i kissed back my body was aroused blood were streaming down fast on my vessels, she pulled back , am pretty sure she can read my
Eyes . As well as i can read her it was so innocent her eyes was so inviting but this has to stop this fucking has to stop

It frustrated me anger was boiling inside me it is wrong even though it felt nice it's wrong i am no longer my old self around her i am getting softer and softer towards her ...i decided to put an end to it..so gathering all courage

I done it ...i made her regret liking me
Even though it was all a lie .. that's how it need to be and i want my oldself not this fucking teenager girlfriend who shares ice cream or whatever.

I think it really hurt her . I know she'been crying her pillow cover was stained in the morning, and she didn't wake up early .

Photographer called me stating that he finished editing and wanted us to choose best one for albums.

First i went out for a run , i always used to exercise a lot it also helps me lower my frustration and anger. This time it was all towards Kiara i don't know why i am this much angry towards her , she kissing me, behaving nicely with me , being playful with me , does that all makes me angry..i wondered i liked each moment of it but still , i don't want it.

Because, because i have a boyfriend..

Just because you have boyfriend my mind was on a battle, he is not your boyfriend he's the love of your life you've been together for 2 years and you love him right...

What you feel for this girl is something you used to have for flings
She's another gold digger,
I used to have a lot of flings back in college well most of them were boys , i slept with some girls too but I have always preferred boys. Girls were all dumb and stupid in bed most of them don't even know what to do in bed , to be frank most of them were experimenting they don't even know how to pleasure a women , so I will end up fucking them but that was never enough for me i get tired of it, but making a women reach her high is something greatly satisfying, when ever I feel low i always fucked women it made me feel powerful dominant.
While fucking man I used to get what I want, yet some of them was also dissapointing.

I don't know how many people i have fucked, i never believed in relationships and never truly had any friends , all of them were after my money. I never loved anyone all of my so called relationship ended like some contract over 2 months duration.

Above all that i had anger issues may be it's because i lost my mother at small age i am not used to taking care and loving someone, to me money was everything and it still is ..

Then Adam happened he was also rich , even though not as much as me but still , he had a chance to took his father's company but he choose passion , i have never seen any man with so much passion and i fell for him slowly..he was loyal to me i even tried to dump him many times but he was presistant , betraying him would be a terrible thing and all this feelings which i developed over these 3 days is nothing as compared to the feelings i has for him.

Seriously i hate myself for being so unprofessional, that to with that indian bitch.

Here we are again in the room , she was in my bed but made sure she sat far away from me , leaving a lot of space. Lookslike my little show has worked , i put her on to her place.
Part of me was also sad that i miss her normal playfullness. She was different today more formal , then our kissing video started playing well watching this was all a bad idea guilt was tripping over my mind i just want my focus off this girl , but she looked so beautiful in all those pictures...

I went on to check my email realizing how much i had missed in two weeks there was lot to catch up i got irritated by all the bugs my laptop was getting struck i just want it to throw away

This is my third laptop this month i guess. Previous ones were thrown out of windows one through my house another through my office.

Fuck i mutterd quite loud,

"What "she raised her head from her laptop she too was working something.

Nothing there's lot off buggs and this system is not working.

Let me have a look she came closer her smell was still nice,

"There it's done ."

My mouth was slightly open she just fixed it in a minute..

Wait she's smart.

Well never gonna get any appreciation from me

The day got busier and busier..

Finally 2 more days left to meet my boyfriend.