The true love story

Chapter thirty-nine

*one month later*

Jay ended up getting life in prison. I don't really know how to act now. i'v finally finished college, which is great, but i still don't feel like myself anymore. I wished i had never left. Maybe things would have been different. Maybe Abby would've never gotten kidnapped. These are most of the things i wished i would have never done.

I've been living in my own apartment for a few days now. I just couldn't really live around my friends right now. As I walk into my room. I look around and started to remember all of the great moments Jay and i used to have when we were living together. I've thought about visting Jay in jail before, but i haven't really gotten around to it. I just, don't know if i'm angry or if i'm just...nothing right now. Abby says that she's okay, but i still felt horrible for what happened with her. And Alex and i...well...we aren't together. I just couldn't get back together with him.

I went to my fridge and grabbed a bottled water. I then went to my couch and started to watch some movies to myself. As i'm watching movies, i remeber that i had forgotten my mail. I get the feelings back into my legs and went to the are where there were mailboxes for everyone who lived there. I grabbed my mail and went back to my apartment.

I walk up the steps that lead to my apartment and am puzzled and frozen to see before me. A letter. From Jay. I quickly ran to my room and opened my letter and began to read from it.

Dear Jessica

I understand that you might hate me, and never want to see me. I mean. Man i shot you. I'm a total dick for doing that. But i couldn't live without you. And i still won't. I love you. I will always love you. Please write back if you have the chance. I want you to be happy and move on in life. Even if we can't be together. I still love you and that's all that matters to me.

With all my love and what's left in my ink pen.

-Jayden Mc'conner

A tear streams down my face. I quickly grab a pen and paper and began to write him back.

Dear Jayden

I want you to know that i finished college and i'm doing just fine...but i do love you. I can't stop thinking of how horrible this must all be for you, but i want you to know that you didn't mean nothing to me, you meant the world to me. I just didn't like the way you're way of love was towards me. Lieing to me every night. I just hope you're doing well and hope everything is well for you.

-Jessica Daniels

I put the letter in an envelope and went back to my mail box and mailed the letter. after i went back to my house. i looked around and looked at the beautiful sight of California. I wished Jay was here to share this beautiful view with me. i know i probably sound insane for this, but...i love him. i always will. I probably do sound insane, but i don't care. as i'm thinking these thoughts, i hear Alex's voice call out to me. I turn around and face Alex who was holding a big cuddly bear. i smile and approach him.

"Awe Alex, you shouldn't have." i said

"I wanted to though." said Alex handing me the bear and smiling," So how you holding up with that cast?" asked Alex. oh, don't know if i told you thid, but i was put in a cast because i got shot. it sucks, but just reminds me more and more about Jay. I looked down at my cast, then back up at Alex," I'm holding up...wanna come inside?" i asked," No thanks, i actually wanted to invite you to go to the movies with me later." said Alex smiling," Oh Alex i would love to, but i actually have to get to work later tonight, i'm getting more and more hours since i finsihed my first year in college." i said smiling," Oh, okay, well...maybe some other time." said Alex smiling," Yeah definaelty." i said the lightly smile," Bye." said Alex," Bye." i said then lightly smile as he walks away. I sighed and went back inside of my apartment.