The true love story

Chapter thirty-six

*The morning*

I awoke to a beautiful morning, but I felt nothing but guilt. I wanted to know these horrible feelings for Jay. was I still in love with Jay? or was it just a moment of lust? I can't be in love with Jay. I love Alex. he's amazing. I feel horrible for cheating on him. I wish I could take all of this back. I still had three more days to be here. I wanted to just lay at home today. I wasn't feeling too well today, so I just decided to sleep in today.

As I'm still laying in bed, I hear footsteps walk up the stairs and I look over in the hall. it was my dad coming up all dressed for work. I laid my head back into my pillow and sighed aloud and waited for my dad to come upstairs. he finally enters my room," Hey Jess-a-bear, you feeling okay?" asked my dad," Not really dad, I don't think I'm really gonna do anything today." I said then my dad nods understandingly," Okay, do you need anything?" asked my dad," No thanks dad, but thanks anyways." I said then my dad walks towards me," Awe Jess, I remember when you were just a little girl and you'd wanna play hooky because you knew Abby wouldn't be at school, that you'd want you mom and I to bring you to the couch with all of your stuffed animals." my dad pauses as he chuckles and so do I," And you'd want us to bring you chicken noddle soap every minute of the hour." said my dad making me laugh," What can I say, you make an awesome ramen noodles." I said making him laugh," Yes I do." said my dad still chuckling. as our laughing soothes out my dad looks at me and smiles. I smile back," What?" I asked," It's just...you've grown up so much." said my dad then strokes my hair," My little Jess-a-bear has grown up so fast...I hate that we can't have those beautiful little moments anymore." said my dad and I nod softly," I do too...sometimes I wish life wouldn't go by in a blink." I said then my dad nods softly," Well, I should get to work." said my dad sighing underneath his breath," Okay." I said," If you need me you can just call." said my dad getting up off of my bed," I know, thanks, and have a good time at work." I said then my dad nods," I always do, bye honey, love you." said my dad," Love you too dad." I said then he walks out of my room and down stairs.

it was quiet in the house for a moment. I waited to hear the sound of my dad's car start. after a few more seconds of waiting, I hear my dad's car start and drive out of the driveway. I got up and looked around to make sure no one was there. I went to the kitchen and pored myself a cup of coffee and applied sugar and milk. after I did that I went to the cabinet and grabbed the loaf of bread and put two pieces in the toaster and waited until the toast was done. I got my bread and applied butter onto both sides and took a quick bite from my toast. I grabbed my plate that had both of my toasts and went to the kitchen table.

I finish my toasts and went to the living room and turned on the TV and watched some cartoons. preferably fairy odd parents. As i'm watching the middle of the episode, i get an incoming call from Nikki. I answer it," Hello?" i asked," What the hell Jess, why are you ignoring my calls?" asked a pissed off familiar male voice," Who is this?" i asked confused," Your boyfriend, or am i not your boyfriend anymore?" asked Alex getting even angrier by the second," Alex..." i was speechless," How have you been?" i asked tring to change the subject," Stop trying to change the subject, why are you ignoring me...did i do something?" asked Alex making me hold back tears," No." i said softly," Then what? why have you been ignoring me?" pleaded Alex," I...." my voice trailed off," What?" demanded Alex," I...I can't talk right now." i said then sighed. a tear escapes my eyes," That's what i thought...are you keeping something from me? tell me now." demanded Alex getting angrier," I can't Alex, i can't even explain it myself." i pleaded hoping that he would back off," I thought we loved each other." said Alex. i could hear the sorrow from his voice, which made me break down in tears," Alex...I do love you...I just can't talk right now okay." i said," Are you keeping something from me? tell me right now." demanded Alex," I..." m voice trailed off," Jessica this isn't funny, tell me now or-"