Vilma was right. It's all over the internet.
I smirked a bit while watching myself beating up Jasmine. Napayuko siya at halos lumuhod sa sabunot ko. She was slapping my legs and scratching my hand at the same time.
Nang buhatin ako ni Hugo ay naiwan siya doon, tulala ng kaunti at maya maya'y nanduduro sa mga tao.
"You got that, right? You saw what she did!" she said, pissed off. "Yeah, it's true! She got abortion! It's true!"
I gritted my teeth. I opened the comment section.
Sakura White : Sabi ko na nga ba may attitude din 'yon! It's obvious!
Janice San Juan : Walang takot sa Diyos! Grabe talaga ang nagagawa ng kasikatan. Mabubulok 'yan sa impyerno!
Maricel Cabiao : Hindi na naawa sa bata! Dapat makulong ang mga taong gumagawa niyan.
Clarisse Joson : She even got the attitude! Gosh. Ito ba ang iniidolo niyo? Wake up, people. Clearly not a good influencer!
Edgar Valentin : Sino iyong binugbog niya?
Gina Roxas : Psalm 127:3 Children are a heritage from the LORD, offspring a reward from him. Read this woman!
Angelica Dela Cruz : Tapos sasabihin niyo, pabigat ang mga batang nagkakaanak ng maaga. At least hindi kami nagpapalaglag!
Myrna Salute : Jusko! Diyos na ang bahala sayo, hija.
I pursed my shaking lips while reading the comment box. I didn't realize that I was already crying while reading.
Lys Borillo : A person prefers to have tattoos. Sometimes it's because of their personal choice, sometimes it's culture. I personally wouldn't prefer to have tattoos because I'm afraid of needles. But my opinion won't matter because at the end of the day, it's their choice. I'm talking about abortion.
Lizel Cabago : You should never tell a woman what to do with her body. Slay, Nikki!
Few people were defending me. Some are my batchmates and my friends' dump accounts, too. I liked their comments as I left the page. People are also making memes about me now, connecting my name as a devil or some kind of a satan.
Clearly, I've never done abortion. I couldn't explain how I will feel about it. Sa sitwasyon ko, nasasaktan ako sa akusasyon dahil hindi ko ginusto iyon. It broke me when I lost my child. And the accusations are breaking me as well.
But it's really hard to speak up about abortion because I know, it's quite a discussion. I'd like to believe abortion is a woman's decision. She should be the one who's in control of her own body, not the society, not the politics and certainly, not the religion. It's hard to only take my side and deny the fact that I didn't do it without looking like I am against the women who did it.
Bumaba ang tingin ko sa plane ticket ko.
Hindi ko ginising si Hugo. He was straddling his hands on my waist this morning. If I could only stay and stare at his face for a long time, I could. But I know I can't.
And so I ran. I ran away.
I scoffed to myself.
Nostalgic.
I will ruin his name. I will ruin his family.
Seeing me with him will just make this all worse. His name isn't still cracked yet but soon, it will. Bago pa man iyon mangyari, gusto ko na gawin ang lahat ng kaya ko. I can't ruin things this time.
