CONFIRMATION {H.S}

part 3 CONFIRMATION

Harry's pov: we were currently getting ready to go to cherry's house......... I was setting myself in front of the mirror..........
I smiled as i thought of cherry, I'm so excited to see her again........ "Harold where are you""coming mom""make it fast"...... I went down and seen Gemma smirking at me i just rolled my eyes at her........ "Mom""yes gem""why is harry dressed so posh" mom looked at from top to bottom......... "It's ok gem so what""yeah yeah we all know that harry is getting very excited to see cherry that's why he dressed so properly and cutely" she smiled at me......... "Of course she is going to be his wife after all""yeah, yeah""come on let's go".............,..........................................

Cherry's pov: today harry and his family are coming to my house as they are planning on the engagement...........
I sighed as i went to my room and locked the door, i decided to take a shower and get ready before they come, or else we'll be having arguments in this house and it won't end............... I went inside the bathroom and removed all my clothes......
I seen my body, it looks like a mashed potato how much ever i tried loosing weight but nothing seems to work, but that's not the reasoti started to cut myself

Flashback (still, cherry's pov): i was just 11 years old........ I didn't like school, i had no friends, nothing....... All the teacher always like to scold me, even though i don't do any mistake....... I'm always scared to go to suppose anything bad happens, or if they again embarrass me again or if the shout at me or if they have a test, if i fail in it.................................
I never really like school it's not for me...
I sighed as i walked through the big gates called school, don't know how today's day will go............ I walked in my class, everyone looking at me and then ignoring me............... I went and sat at the last bench...... The teacher came and started the class............ Everybody were asking the teacher for the test results as she said that today we'll get it and show our papers how we wrote and how much we scored........ In my mind i kept praying to God that mam should not give the results because i already know that I'm gonna fail.............. I sighed as i got my test sheet, i looked at it and as all times even this time, i failed it was mathematics........
There is no doubt i always fail in maths...
I kept my head down, "cherry come here" the teacher called me i went walking upto her with a normal face, i didn't want to be embarrass again in front of the whole class......... "Yes mam""how much did you get""umm 7 on 20 mam" "are you happy with those marks" i shook my head no "aren't you learning cherry""i am mam, i just don't know how""i don't think your studying cherry, your always failing if this is the matter then i don't what you are gonna do to pass this year" i just kept quiet "i want to meet your parents cherry" i nodded and went back to my place, i seen everyone looking at me................ The whole in school i was just thinking of how I'm gonna pass this year, if i keep failing i need to pass my finals......... I always pass but this time i don't know what is happening to me................... School ended and i came out to see my father standing there looking at me......... I walked to him "how was school""nice".................................
I came home and sighed as i went down to my room........................ I went to lay down on my bed, when i heard my father calling me screaming my name..................
"Cherry come here""what is it" i had a sevre headache so it was too tough for me to handle this situation.............. "I met you teacher today""which teacher""your math teacher""ok, so" i knew what was going to happen but i tried being cool.......
"How much did you get in your math exam" i just looked at him........ "How much" then my mother came running...... "What's the matter""what's the matter this is the matter, your daughter failed her math test and i met the teacher today she said she wanted to meet you this ptm""cherry what is this, didn't you learn for you exam""i learnt but i don't know how""I'll tell you how you are always with the phone and never studying and then you can how you failed but you studied all this rubbish won't act i need you too pass or else our shame will go, your shame will go and don't think that you'll put our head in shame and if that's the matter then you don't stay in this house you go and live somewhere else it will be better for all of us"............................
He took out his belt and started hitting me hard, i kept crying and pleading him to stop, but he didn't "you are a mistake, a shame for our family, you must be having someone on your phone that's why your always on it" he never stopped hitting me............... I looked at my mother and brother but they were just they standing and looking at me being beaten up, not emotion on they face.......................
He kept hitting me untill he was satisfied and then stopped........... I ran to my room and locked the door, i kept crying, i wanted to end all this pain........... I decided to try something and end all this so i took out my blade which i use for my projects and looked at it............. I slowly put it on my wrist and started to cut myself going deeper, wanting to die.......... I cried silently as i didn't want anyone to know what I'm doing, i felt some much pain when i cut it........ I seen the red blood flow out of my wrist, i was feeling dizzy so i just closed my eyes and went in a deep sleep................ After sometime i opened my eyes to see that I'm still alive and the blood stopped........ I drank some water and had a bath, i cleaned all the mess and went outside my room................ I made my coffee and drank it..................... I decided to watch some cartoons just to change my mind.......... The door opened to see my father, mother and my brother coming.......... My brother came and took the tv remote from me "give it back""dad tell her to go and study, she is just sitting and watching tv or else she is on her phone, that's why you are failing, your are a failer thats it's" i felt pain on my chest, it always happens when i get hurt emotionally or either physically.................

Present (cherry's pov): and that's how I started to self-harm, because nothing seems to work.......... So to find some relief i do it......... As i know everyday is a curse for me........... Even on my birthdays i cry, my mother makes me cry on my birthday if it's not her, then it's my father i curse the day i was born.......... Nobody likes me....... I touch anything, i destroy it............ I don't deserve anything in life....... My dreams are all destroyed, i always knew that i can never make my dreams come true........... I don't have a single......... Everyone seem to hate me.......
I'm just 5.8 in my height......... I'm too fat, ugly and the worst girl ever in the world......... I'm nothing........... That's why i always pray to God that, what life i have u don't want anyone else to have it............