i, you, & them

an eternal moment

the time has come for me to go
although i'll miss out on what life has to offer
a lover by my side, a child by the other
and a life lived fully amidst all

i'm looking at the gaps the leaves make
sun streaks seeping through like tiny beams
of hope and happiness
a gentle breeze coming along

but i'm standing under the vast, blue sky
the summer sun never leaving
stinging eyes that keep me alive
i hate that i had to live a lie just to live
but if it meant getting to spend time with them
even if just for awhile
then regrets are mere abstractions i can't hold
i'm sorry mom and dad
but it's time for me to go
you both were the only people i knew
would never abandon me
for many nights, such truth broke me
because i realized just how unlovable i was for many
a firework unable to be controlled
an explosion so bright, everyone would rather
cover their eyes than witness an eternal moment
gone for another century

i'll pull the trigger and it'll be the only explosion
everyone will know
the only eternal they'll ponder for the years to come