i, you, & them

i took a nap and woke up sadder

unable to pick which is which
unable to distinguish if i'm it
feels like we're going to die everyday
feels like there's hatred in every say
please don't leave, i do try
to talk and be less myself at the same time
fake it 'til you leave is what i always do
it's exhausting not only for me, but for you too
today i'll do it, i promise i will
and i'll end up breaking it, cry by the sill
valley at the back of my house i used to say
a clean wound to the head i'll pay
today i'll do it, i promise i will
i'll break it, and end up lonelier still

do you see me walking by with no face?
do you see me cry-laughing as I pace?
what do you do when your mind hates you?
what do you do when everyone is against you?
i can't breathe, can't wait
i'm blind as of late
memory so foggy i can't think
was this who i was or was it all a trick?
loneliness, loneliness, can't be my friend
it stays beside me nevertheless
would you stay beside me if you can?
would you leave me like everyone had?
i can't think clearly when i can't breathe
this loneliness will kill me in my sleep