MY GREY WORLD

Chapter 28

I sighed as I leaned back in wheelchair, it was 11:30pm that is 30mins to new-year and Britt and I was seating in the balcony as we stared out towards the city. Earlier in the day Robert had pulled some strings and had gotten Britt transferred to my room although she was alright now. Jose and Tony had gone out to enjoy the new-year and Robert had to go back home although he made sure I was okay.

"Are you okay?" She asked for the umpteenth time this night

I almost rolled my eyes but I knew she was just worried so I chuckled and held her hands so she could stop wringing her them as I continue to stare out the city.

"What's on your mind?" I knew she was thinking the way she kept furrowing her brows and she kept avoiding my eyes.

"I know this isn't the right time to talk about this, but what are we? I mean I'm completely fine with being just friends. I mean yeah if you don't want a relationship I'm ok, I just want to -"

I used my hands to cover her mouth which caused her to freeze, "Can I speak now?"

She nodded anxiously which caused me to chuckle, I removed my hands and resumed staring at the city as I picked her hands again

"I know we never really talked about it, first off I wanna say I am really sorry for my foolishness and all the pain and rollercoaster of messed up emotions I put you through. I have never being in a relationship, not because I didn't want to be in one but because I spent my years trying to survive and just live through life. I couldn't wait to finish high school so I could finally leave that house, it has been more of a prison than a home throughout my eighteen years of living and it became even worse when Lionel got involved with those shit we were always on the run from one thing or the other, he was a really cool friend though he was always there for me and I always regret not being able to save him on time."

Tears where slowly dripping down my cheeks, I felt her hands gently caress my cheeks.

I chuckled murmuring, "Stupid tears"

"Where was I? Right. Before I was kidnapped I had found out that the woman I had known all my life as my mother wasn't my mother, funny isn't it all this while I had been thinking that my father hated me because I was intersex whereas the reason for that was because I allegedly killed my mother, she died while giving birth to me. At this point I don't even know where my life is heading, it just so confusing and tiring"

She nodded in understanding, I took a deep breath as I continued, "But I do like you, so much. And I know we started off on the wrong note I want us to start again and this time taking it slow, it isn't compulsory for us to name what we are right now we can get to know each other more and then we see where this takes us. I just want you know that in this past days that I was in that place I couldn't stop thinking of your cute face"

She frowned at the last sentence, "I'm not cute, I'm hot and sexy"

I chuckled and nodded, "If you say so, but seriously is that only what you heard out after my long speech"

She grinned before she spoke, "We all make mistakes and I think the fault wasn't only from you, we both were at fault and we could always start again. I can't also say I understand everything you've being through neither can I promise you it's going to be ok soon but I can say we all here for you, me, Jose and Tony we are here"

I nodded

"You know the reason I have anxiety issues especially when I am in a hospital is because two years ago, my girlfriend died in a car accident, she was going through a lot at the time, she had been invited to a party but I couldn't go with her because I had a test the next day so she went alone. Whenever we went to a party together I was usually the driver because at the end of the party she would be all drunk and wasted, at the time I didn't usually drink in parties I was only there to dance and eat junk food, mostly to keep her company. Before she left for the party I made her promise to not drink at the party and if she did drink she should call an uber to take her home. Around 4am in the morning I had gotten a call from the landline, she was involved in a car accident and was in critical condition, I rushed out of the house in my spongebob pajamas and two right legs flip-flops. She had actually tried calling me to pick her up but my phone wasn't on me since I usually read in my dad's study, after 3hrs and 20mins in the hospital she died, I cried that day and every day I think of the ifs. If I had answered her call, she would still be here; if I had convinced her not to go to the party, she would still be here; if I had gone to the party with her she would still be here. I still blame myself for her death but I have also learned to move on I always get reminded of the incident anytime I step foot into a hospital and the pills tend to keep my anxiety at bay though I have learned overdosing it isn't exactly wise. We all have regrets but there is nothing we can do but move on. And your father is a fool for blaming your mother's death on you, nobody had control of the situation, so stop beating yourself up for it."

I nodded as I took in all what she said, everybody has their demons that they were battling with.

"Plus I think you should give your stepmom a chance, she is really trying to get to know you."

I rolled my eyes at her, I was actually shocked to hear that she was here in the hospital, she actually came to speak to me but I pretended to be asleep the whole time she spoke.

"Don't roll your eyes at me" she said as she frowned up to me which caused me to roll it once more

I saw her frown deepen and I chuckled murmuring a 'I'm sorry'

Just then we heard the countdown boom from the people downstairs, the hospital had set up a small fair for the patients and the residents who couldn't go home for the new-year.

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I looked at Britt and I could see that mischievous glint in her eyes, I raised my eyebrows in question

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"You know I have always wanted to share a kiss at the beginning of a new year under the fireworks, what do you think?" she said as she wiggled her eyebrows a smirk playing on her lips.

"I mean....yeah...if...if you wanna...I don't know", it was my turn to look down at my fingers

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I felt her tug me closer, my breathe hitched as she played with my baby hair at the back of my neck looking between my eyes and lips while my eyes were fixated on her lips

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

She crashed her lips on mine as she pulled me closer, I sighed in content against her lips, kissing her was always blissful. From a simple innocent kiss, it turned to battle of tongues, after what felt like hours we finally let go, leaning on each other forehead trying to catch our breathe. Now this is the Brittney I knew.

Then we spent the night, morning rather staring into the city holding hands and sipping on the milkshakes that was brought to us by a nurse.

I didn't care how long it lasted, all I cared about was that I was happy at this moment. And that's all that mattered right now....