Online Love (fem reader × Kenma Haikyuu)

33. Watermelon

Yn pov

"YN WAIT". I heard his voice, i froze at the sound of his voice desperately calling out for me.

What did he want? Apologise? Blame me? I wasn't ready to hear him out and just when Oikawa wanted to keep walking with me he continued.

"I love you yn! I love you too and a lot and only you!" He yelled out. He yelled? He never yells. He loves me? Was he kidding me? He just kissed another girl and suddenly he loves me? Is he playing with my feelings?

I hesitantly turned around and the view was surprising even for me. His hands were balled in fists and eyes squeezed shut. His head hung low and shoulders pulled up, his body language showed how nervous and anxious he was.

I couldn't move, I just stared at him blankly, afraid what I should do now. That decision was taken from me when Oikawa stepped infront of me.

"Funny...when I love my girlfriend I don't kiss other girls." Bullseye, it hurt again.

"I..." I waited for his response. "I am not his girlfriend. He made that clear enough" I mumbled as I tugged on Oikawas sleeve. "Not? But-" "please don't Oikawa..." I held back another set of tears. "I want you to be my girlfriend!" I flinched at turned back to Kenma. His body language changed, he stood up straight and his eyes pierced into mine. I frowned "Why? Yesterday you made it clear enough that you don't intend on dating any time soon. We agreed on this unlabelled non commitment as longs as we both know the terms and our feelings. But it seems like we don't. It feels like you're changing your Terms without telling me - I don't even know your feelings anymore and suddenly you love me too?" I walked towards him, stopping infront if him. "Say it to my face" I whispered and we stared at each other.

I looked into his eyes and suddenly he took one of my hands "yn I really love you and I am sorry it took me so long to sort out my feelings. I Don't know how to express it and ... I'm sorry" I frowned and nodded "let's...talk after the trainings match, calmly. I need some time" I stepped back and I watched him lower his head. "Of course...I'll see you on court". I nodded and quickly placed a kiss on his cheek "I love you Kozume" I whispered before I walked towards my Cabin, accompanied by Oikawa who ruffled my hair.

"Well said yn. But don't let him fool you" he calmly nudged me and I nodded "I won't. But he was really on the edge the past weeks. Whatever troubles him, I want to be there for him and I'll gladly wait until he's ready to share it with me. It's nothing new to me that he doesn't like to talk about his feelings and has immense trust issues." I sighed "he made you cry." I looked over at Oikawas angry face "he did...but I'll cry way more if I don't hear him out.".

"Sounds fair, will I see you at dinner tonight?" "Of course! And don't forget the apology Oikawa" I grinned at him and he nodded "I will".

I smiled and entered my cabin to change "bye Oikawa and...thanks for being there" "of course yn. See ya" I waved him bye before I closed my door.

I quickly changed my clothes and went back to the court. I saw the boys still practicing and smiled a little to myself "don't overdo it" I yelled over to Yamaguchi who laid on the ground panting for air "don't worry!" He gave me a tired thumbs up. "You need to stay focused and fit for Nekoma". I smiled as I checked the water bottles, they were all filled, probably from Kiyoko.

I took a deep breath and recalled the Events from earlier, i really had to talk to Kuroo before meeting with Kenma. He'll have some good advice, he always has. And spoken of the devil Nekoma walked in, the trainers greeted each other and told the boys to warm up.

I politely smiled at their manager and bowed towards the team. "HEY YN!" I looked up and smiled softly at the tall male running towards me "Hey Lev! How are you?" "Good! Do you notice something?" He grinned proudly as he twirled infront of me "hmmmm did you grow again?". His eyes widened ecxited "YES! SO YOU NOTICE!" he turned around to his Team "SEE? SHE NOTICED SO YOU CAN SEE A DIFFERENCE" I laughed at his bratty attitude, he was so sensitive about his height.

"I did. Now you warm up too Lev! We'll talk later, deal?" "Yes!! Better watch out for me and Kuroo" he smirked as he ran to his team to warm up, gaining a annoyed stare from Kenma. He really disliked Levs behaviour,  I found it amusing on the other hand.

"Do your best!" I called over to the boys who went in position, I really hoped their training was worth it!

I took my seat next to the court to count points. A loud whistle filled the gym, announcing the match to start.

It was actually pretty tense! I saw Kenma giving out death glares and he seemed out of shape or just unfocused. But Kageyama and Shoyo weren't on their highest as well, Shoyo missed a lot of balls and I watched him trip over his own feet over and over again. I bit my lip and looked over to Ukai, hoping he takes a break.

It took another few points until he interrupted the game and before he could say anything I ran to Shoyo "Shoyo! Think about our stepping technique! You handled it so well, what happened?" "There's no music yn" he whined and I laughed. "Shoyo...you don't need music to find a rythim, listen to the squeaking of your shoes and the voices and pants of the team, everything is a rythym and melody if you have enough imagination! Now go out there and move your feet elegant over the court like we did at home! Shift your weight and find a balance point!" He nodded ecxitedly and drank something. "What are you talking about?" Tanaka frowned as he watched Shoyo do ice skating movements. "He has to focus on shifting his weight fast enough to move his feet swiftly from side to side. Or else he keeps falling over his own feet." "And you think that will help?" "I hope..." I sighed and handed him a bottle.

As they went back at court I took in my seat again and looked over to Nekoma, Kuroo seemed to have a more serious talk to his mates and I spotted Kenma staring at me. We accidentally made eye contact and I gave him a hesitant thumbs up 'you can do it' I mouthed, trying to cheer him up. I saw his shoulders sinking and face relaxing, it worked I guess.

As the match continued I tried focusing on Shoyo and indeed, I saw him moving his feet faster. I exhaled relieved as they made another point - It felt like he got the hang of it.

I also saw Nishinoya and Tsukishima staring intensely at his foot work as well, they were either confused by the sudden change of Hinatas movements or amazed - I just can't make Tsukishimas face out.

Unfortunately it was for nothing.  Karasuno lost 21-25 , I sighed loudly and stood up. "Yln-San?" I turned around and met the manager "oh! Hi" I smiled "call me yn". The girl nodded happily "we brought some watermelon, would you mind helping me cut it and hand it out?" I nodded happily "of course! Lets go" I followed her to the kitchen where we prepared the treat.

"Nekoma played really well" I smiled to her as we put the already cut pieces on a plate and she shrugged "Kinda. I saw them in better shape, especially Kenma. He never looses focus in a game and if he does Kuroo can make him focus again. But today? No chance" I hummed and nodded. Maybe I was the reason today, after all it was a very emotional day.

"I..dont know what to say but Kozume is a great setter, he probably just had a bad day, let's bring them the melon to cheer em up" I offered with a slight smile.

"Yes!" She smiled and we walked back to the gym with the melon pieces.
"Guys! We brought fresh watermelon" she called sweetly and I laughed at how ecxited the boys took a slice each "thank you!!".

They all sat outside of the gym and I kept walking around with the plate offering them more, even when some boys from other teams joined. They seemed to have a break now too and since we got plenty I offered them melon too. "Suga! Want another slice?" "Ah thank you yn!" I smiled at him and carried one. "Asahi!" The tall man flinched and turned to me with a anxious stare "uhm...want another slice?" He smiled slightly and took one "thank you Yn." "Did I scare you?" I giggled and he blushed turning away. "You startled him that's all" Daichi laughed as he took another slice as well. "Oh I'm sorry Asahi" I smiled and pat his back before carrying on, the plate was soon empty.

"Yn!" I flinched and turned to the loud voice calling me. "Yes?" "Up for a word?" I swallowed thickly and nodded "sure.", I hope I wasn't in trouble, he sounded angry.