"You look happy..." Amelia grinned at Meredith as they were standing in the kitchen area
"I am happy... again" Meredith admitted
smiling shyly
"Are you and Nick.... together or... just friends again,but closer this time?" Amelia asked lightly
"Ye-yeah... I mean...kinda, we're taking it slow" Meredith answered as she and Amelia sat on the dining table with a cup of coffee in their hand
"Why slow? I mean, why don't you just get there" Amelia said sarcastically
"I mean... I'm thinking about it..." Meredith admitted with a sigh
"Then why not do it?" Amelia paused for a moment, trying to read her sister's facial expression "You're not ready?" she questioned as Meredith looked at her,the fear look was drawn on her face
"I don't know..." Meredith admitted with a sigh "I just got him back... I don't want to lose him again"
"You won't lose him, he's not going anywhere,Mer" Amelia chuckled in amusement trying to cheer her sister a little bit
"You don't know that... he likes to be alone when something's wrong, he likes going away from the others when there's a problem... same thing he did back then ... he left with the same reason" Meredith told her sister
"Maybe he's changed..." Amelia suggested not sure about her statement either
"When he left after our graduation... I was dead inside..." Meredith began, pausing for a little while, trying to build the courage to continue ths story "growing up, he was the one one I can rely on, he was the only one who really knows me and knows what I want"
"Did you know that he loved you more than just a friend back then?" Amelia then asked, looking at her sister sympathetically
"I do..." Meredith answered "but I didn't say anything because I wasn't sure about it... because he kept telling me about the girl he liked but I didn't really know he was talking about me" she had to chuckle at her last sentence making Anemia smile as well "I did love him more than just a friend...back then"
"You're both thinking about the same thing... it's like you have a telepathy" Amelia said sarcastically making Meredith laugh
"What do you mean?"
"You thought you'd lose him if you fully let him in and he's scared to lose you as well..." Amelia answered
Meredith didn't answer and just looked down at her mug,deep in her thoughts
"Have you ever thought of getting married again?" Amelia asked taking Meredith in surprised "I mean, after Derek... have you? with Andrew?"
"I...." Meredith paused,not sure how to continue "we rarely had that conversation but yes... I pictured a family with him" she added as Amelia find a small sad smile forming on her sister's lips
"With Nick?" Amelia asked hesitantly
She didn't answer and just nodded.
"Do you... want to have a baby?" Amelia then asked
"I'm not sure" Meredith admitted
"Not sure?" Amelia asked frowning confusedly, taking a sip of her coffee
"I was pregnant..." Meredith said making Amelia spit her coffee in shock
"What?"
"And I lost it..." Meredith continued
"How come you didn't tell us?" Amelia asked, hurt and concerned at the same time
"We didn't want to tell you until I'm further long because I had a pretty sensitive pregnancy"
"Is that why you left and spent the whole year with Andrew in Italy?" Amelia asked
"Yeah..." she nodded
"How far along were you?" Amelia asked
"21 weeks..." Meredith answered shortly "I had a bleeding..."
"Then why were you in Italy for the whole year, why didn't you just come home" Amelia then asked confused
"Andrew didn't want to... plus after the miscarriage he kept telling me that we'd try again..." Meredith paused looking down at her lap "And now...I- I don't ever know if I want to be pregnant again or even think about getting pregnant again"
Amelia didn't answer and just sat there, feeling the familiar presence of her sister as they were having coffee.
"But eventually... I would want to have at least one child" Meredith continued smiling slightly
"That's good ... because Link and I are thinking of having a baby as well" Amelia smiled
"You want me to have kids so that your kids will have playmates? really?" Meredith questioned raising her eyebrows
"Is that a bad thing?" Amelia asked, trying to sound offended
"Well,if you make it sound like that... I kinda feel pressured" Meredith answered
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Miles Apart • MerNick
FanfictionMeredith and Nick were best friends since they were little kids, 5 years old to be exact. They met after a week Nick had moved in across the street from Meredith's house. Until Nick had to go back to Canada with his parents and sister Erica when he...
