Not Around The Corner

Uncertain

“Ok. You fuck me, and then snub me. You love me, you hate me. You show me a sensitive side, and then you turn into a total asshole. Is this a pretty accurate description of our relationship?” ― Chuck Palahniuk

I was so angry with Jai right now. I came home and flung everything that came in my way. He had been so rude and mean. The things he had said about Akash were unnecessary. I wished Anushka were home but she was still on her honeymoon. I needed somebody to talk to. I tried watching television but his words weren’t leaving my mind. I was hurt. I hadn’t met Akash today because I had gone to meet Jai. And he was the only person in the town right now and he was the only person I couldn’t talk to about this.

I was in my room all evening and didn’t want to leave it. Akash called me at night but I cut his call. I didn’t want to talk with anybody at all. I looked at the pair of shot glasses Jai had given me and I felt like throwing them away. I just lay on my bed waiting for sleep to descend on me.

I finally slept at 3 in the morning. I had cried all night. I decided to take an off from work today. I got up late. When I was brushing my teeth, I saw my face in the mirror. I looked like hell. My eyes were swollen with all the crying. I washed my eyes a couple of times and went to get myself a cup of coffee.

As I entered the hall I saw Gaurav reading the newspaper and Anushka was making breakfast. They must have arrived in the morning.

“Hey you,” she said looking at me. She got back to the toasts and suddenly looked back at me. She must have seen my eyes, I thought to myself. She ran towards me from the kitchen.

“What happened to you?” she asked with concern.

As soon as she asked that, the tears that had stopped flowing last night came gushing down.

“Sit down and tell me everything,” she said. I sat on the sofa. Gaurav had come to me too by now. He was holding me in his arms and trying to calm me.

“Jai is a complete asshole,” I said between all the crying. I told them how he behaved last night and both of them cursed him. After a while I became quiet. Akash had called me about ten times since last night and I owed him an explanation. Since last night I didn’t know how I should work things out with Akash. Jai had confessed his feelings for me but that fight didn’t show the best prospects for our relationship.

I messaged Akash and asked him to meet me in the evening. I had my breakfast and sat talking with Anushka about her honeymoon. I tried distracting myself but my mind wasn’t in it. I got a call from Jai about then and I cut his call.

“He thinks he can call and make things right now?” I asked angrily.

He called me for a couple of times more and I didn’t take his call. He called Gaurav too but I told Gaurav to tell Jai that I wasn’t interested in listening to him anymore. I was still pissed at Jai. Yesterday was so uncalled for. He was jealous, agreed. But he didn’t have to be so horrid.

Anushka kept an eye over me all day. I was happy she was back in town. I needed a friend and I had her to help me through this. I sat on the porch all day.

In the evening, I met Akash in a nearby park and he was a bit irritated. He was trying to hide it but he wasn’t so good at it.

“First of all, I am really sorry I didn’t pick your calls up,” I told him before he could say anything.

“What’s going on Rhea?” he asked.

“I had a huge fight with Jai and I was angry,” I decided to hide the details. “I would have removed my anger on you and so I didn’t take your call.” Yes I was being a coward but I needed time to think this through. I couldn’t just break his heart like that.