Devin;
Three months after divorce;
The smell of coffee brewing in the air was enticing my senses to wake up, but the thumping in my head was too much.
"When are you going to wake up sleepy head?" I heard her sweet voice say as she bit my ear and handed me some ibuprofen and water. I popped the pills in my mouth and drank the water.
"Don't start something you can't finish," I teased as I turn over to a smiling Nubbie.
She laughed as I pulled her on top of me. She kissed my lips and played with my hair.
"I made the coffee, but you have to make the food," she said sheepishly.
"I figured, this makes what? year three you haven't taken your cooking classes?" I joked.
She slapped my chest hard. "Not funny Devin," I laughed at her angry and quickly kissed it away.
"I am sorry, I am just teasing," I said before seating up with her still in my lap.
"What do you wanna eat?" We asked each other in unison.
We laughed at the coincidence. I pushed her brown hair back and smiled. It was the first time I could relax. The first time I felt seen and what made this better is my best friend. Of course I am not ready for a relationship, but the best part is she knows me so well. She gives me a voice when I need it. Terra never felt that way about me. She always gave me so much problems, she always played with my emotions. The act of us getting to know each other when we first met was a red flag too.
Her posting all the time on social media but when I respond to her giving her love I was ignored. Her giving her fans more attention and even her new lover Jack who was her friend at the point. She made me feel alone and I questioned myself everyday. When she finally gave me that attention I was happy and wiped away the previous hurt of her past actions. I told myself she loved me and when she told me she did I believed her. I felt like I was her lucky fan, the one who had that y/n moment. That one those were sure was going to be doomed because getting close to an idol, a goddess.. was a big no no.
Her fans attacked me daily about what I said and did. Ignored me. Isolate me from her, got me fired, and spread rumors about me. They wanted her and Jack together so bad that when I asked for Terra's hand in marriage it made her hesitate. I told myself that she just wasn't ready. She even asked me "why are you acting like something your not?" When I tried to protect her. Risking my life so those who sent her death threats wouldn't hurt her.
For what? I was the clown, and our marriage was the sick joke at the end of the day that I couldn't get.
"Dev, are you okay?" Nubbie asked.
I pulled my head into her chest as I cried. I hadn't even notice the changed pattern in my breathing as it became shallow and filled with Anixety. I was scared I will lose this too. Was this happiness too good to be true? God tell me it's okay to be happy like this.
"Devin, I won't go anywhere, as long as you need me I am here, no matter how difficult this get I will be here, I know what she did and how she hurt you; I won't ask you to let your guard down because it's up for a reason, but let me be by your side and help you heal yourself until you can love yourself then return it to me and I return it to you in double," she soothed me as she stroke my hair.
I nodded my head as my Anixety subsided. She got off of me and pulled me up onto my feet and kissed my lips and wiped my tears.
"I am sorry," I said subconsciously.
"Don't ever be sorry for your feelings because if you do you will be sorry about everything," she said sternly.
I nodded again and pulled her into another hug. Her peaches and cream scent was refreshing compared to Terra's strawberry one. It felt safe. It felt like home.
"So do you wanna talk about why you showed up to my house last night, crying?" I asked once I cleared my throat.
"Not over breakfast, let's eat first babe then we talk," she said before winking at me.
She always knew how to get me so fluster in such a quick second.
"Why you little!" I screamed as I picked her up.
She screamed and laughed as I swung her over my shoulder and headed to the kitchen. I rummaged through my fridge to see that it was empty. Sobah and I forgot to buy food. I smacked Nubbie's butt playfully before asking her "tis madam we seem to be out of food? How shall we harvest it?" I said with a English accent.
"Devin, that is so corny, let's go to the grocery store," she said as she kicked my leg softly.
"As you command madam," I said before placing her back into a standing position.
"You are such a nerd, you know that?" She teased.
"Says the biggest nerd to exist ms. IQ 148," I teased back, receiving a playful slap to the arm.
"Hey!" I shouted as I poked her in the side.
She laughed as she ran away from me towards my room. I caught her in my arms and swing her around before tossing her on my bed.
"Wanna take a shower together or separate?" I asked.
"Mr. Jamestown you are quiet the scoundrel for a freshly divorcee," she joked in a English accent.
"Well Ms. Kim, then you are the same as me then," I said as I passionately kissed her lips.
Safe. You are finally safe and loved Devin.
Tears baddies! All the tears! What a sweet couple. Will it last though? ~TB
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