THE HALF OF IT

Part - 27

Life have turned upside down with one decision of mine. Karan is sitting in my living room yet he feels so distant. Since it's weekend he has come to take Ruhi but she has went to Shruti’s house to play with Tanya before going.

Karan is busy in his mobile and I took the opportunity to take his features in as I rarely get a chance to notice him now. His perfect jawline, his beautiful eyes, the lines on his forehead when he is concentrating and the way he moves his tongue on his lower lip to make them wet. This action makes me clench my thighs together as memories of that tongue doing wicked things to me comes back.

While I was busy gawking him, tea was about to overflow from the utensil and in a hurry I just picked it up and the cup which I have placed near to pour it, fell on my leg with a thud and there were pieces all around. Though there wasn't a piece in my leg but since it directly fall on it so, a scream left my mouth and Karan immediately ran to me and inspected the kitchen and picked me up and took me to the couch, then he made me sit there and inspected my leg.

"Teju, what is wrong with you, see you got hurt now." He said and went to refrigerator and came back with ice and started rubbing it on the place I get hurt as it was started to get swell. "What were you thinking,  where were you lost, how can you be so careless... " and he kept going scolding me.

Water pooled in my eyes thinking, " Why does he care, he has already moved on with another girl. I stalked him on Social media and there are pictures of him with that girl. They seem really close, so why is he showing me fake concern as if he really cares for me." He pressed the ice a little Harder and I wince it pain.

"Karan, you don't need to do this, I can take care of myself. I am used to looking after myself without any help."
Karan looked at me and the look on his face told me he was hurt by my words but he kept rubbing the ice cube.

"Yeah, yeah, I can see how well you are taking care of yourself." Listening to him I started to stand up and move away but my leg was paining like a bitch and I couldn't stand properly, forget about walking. Before I fall down and my face touches floor, Karan gripped me by my waist and lifted in his arms.

I was startled by the sudden act but seeing him I knew it's not the right time to argue to I kept mum and he took me to my room and made me lie on my bed and told me to rest. I closed my eyes without argument as I was really tired, emotionally as well as physically.

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I was just scrolling through my mobile mindlessly as all my focus was on my beautiful love Tejasswi who was making tea for me despite the fact she loves coffee. Her decision changed a lot of things between us but this time she herself is responsible for most of it.

After announcing that she doesn't want anything between us more than just being co-parenting Ruhi, she started to drift apart more and more. Her words broke my heart as I thought I have proved her that how much I love her and she can trust me but seems her fears are bigger than her love and she really needs to to get a grip now and face the reality.

I went to my best friends, Jessica house as she is the one who has stood by my side in all my problems and motivated me. I told her everything that happened me and Teju and she told me that I should give her some time and space. Childhood trauma is the worst and it really is too difficult to come out of it. Though her words encouraged me but I still felt low so Jessica took it on herself to lift my spirits up. She has been my pillar of support for years now and we both always had each other's back.

Jess knows how bad I feel each time I have to drop Ruhi back and how my heart aches to see my happy family, so she accompanied me to drop Ruhi that day and it really helped. I was lost in my thoughts when I heard Teju scream. I immediately ran to her and saw a cup have Fallen down and her leg was swelling up, so I took her to couch carefully avoiding pieces of broken cup and then put ice on her leg. My protective instinct took over and I didn't realized when I started to give her a lecture but her words about she being capable of taking care of herself broke my heart.

Jess was right, this girl has been through a lot but I didn't said anything further and took her to her room to rest. I came back to kitchen to clean the mess. I started collecting pieces, but what was Teju so lost in and in fact since the last weekend when I and Jess dropped Ruhi, since them she is behaving more weird. Earlier she was just distant but now she doesn't even say a word to me except the pleasantries that we exchange.

The bell rang and Shurti came back with Ruhi bringing me out of my thoughts. She asked me where Teju is and I told her everything. I asked Ruhi if she is okay to stay back as mumma is hurt and we have to take care of her. Being the amazing child that our princess is, she too was worried for Teju and eagerly agreed. Shruti checked on Teju and then left. I asked Ruhi to go to Teju's  room and I will come soon cleaning all this up. Once she went I called my mom to ask what should I apply or do so that Teju feels better. She suggested to make turmeric milk for her and I made it and walked to Teju's room.

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Finally, I updated and to be honest I am proud of myself. Last few days have been hard, but soon I will update again and that's a promise.

Till then thanks to everyone who kept motivating and supporting me I these times.