With All My Heart, Tronnor

The Truth

Connor Pov

"Truth or Dare!!" I heard Jenn shout. "Come on everyone, lets play!"

Slowly everyone started to gather into the middle of the huge living room and started sitting in a circle on the shiny new wooden floor.

"Hey Con, grab an empty bottle and come sit" Kian said patting the empty space to his right.

I grabbed the first empty bottle I saw and went to sit with him. Soon, Jack came and sat on my right, occupying the empty sit to complete the circle.

Once everyone was settled, Trevor spun the bottle to begin the game.

I really dint want that bottle to stop at me but even if it did, I know I'd never go for the truth because the last time I confessed something, well, I lost my best friend...

I was in my bed when I heard some noises in my kitchen, it was like someone was there. I thought it was just my imagination and let it go.
It was just half past 7 in the morning, it's not possible for anyone to be here.

I was wide awake, all showered and ready for the day, just lying in my bed and staring at the ceiling.

Obviously, I couldn't get any sleep last night. I had so much going in my head, which kept my mind busy and my body far away from sleep.

So, Troye kissed me last night and I kissed him back. I am certain that it wasn't just a drunk meaningless kiss, well, for me it wasn't, I don't know about Troye though.

I really really like him or maybe more than like him. But, that's not what kept me up all night. Well, technically it was but the major issues
was - Tyler!

I can't hide my feelings anymore. He's my best friend, I have to tell him!
Obviously, he'll understand, he has to!

Well, I hope..

Suddenly, I was startled by the voice of some water runing.

There is DEFINITELY someone in my kitchen!

I quickly but quietly, got off my bed and slowly peeped outside the room only to discover Tyler sitting there on a chair next to the kitchen counter, all by himself using his computer and probably drinking coffee, out of one of my merch cups.

"Gosh, Ty! You scared the fuck out of me!" I said getting out "How did you even get in here?"

"Hey! You're up!" He said eyeing me from head to toe "And showered?" He raised his eyebrow "Oh, and btw, I used the emergency key" he said with his iconic 'Tyler Oakley' laugh.

"That was for emergencies, Tyler" I rolled my eyes and took a seat next to him "Not to scare the shit out of me"

"Well, my meting got canceled and I was already on my way. So, I decided to come here instead and I figured you'd be asleep and I dint wonna disturb you, so I used the key" he paused to take a sip of his coffee, not even bothering to leave the sight of his computer "See, emergency"

I just rolled my eyes again in response.

I peeked into his screen and saw that he was just casually fiddling through his tumbler dashboard. Good. No serious work. Now I can tell him, but, I am not sure if I want to, I am not sure if I can..

"Well, I am glad you're here early.." I looked at my hands, trying to avoid looking at him "I wanted to talk to you about something.."

"Sure, whatsup?" He said still going through his dashboard.

"Umm, I-It's.. It's s-serious.." I stuttered.

I moved my face up and saw Tyler, finally moving his eyes from his computer and looking at me.

I don't know what he saw in my eyes, he suddenly shut his computer and turned his chair to face me.

"Hey, what's wrong?"

I couldn't say or do anything rather than just stare at him, trying to find my words to out my feelings so that he understood what I wanted to say without misjudging the situation.

And now at this point, I wasn't even sure if I wanted to tell him anymore. But, it was too late. I had tell him. I can't run away from this anymore.

I could feel sweat on my forehead and my heartbeat getting faster.

Here goes nothing...

"Well.. you know how it snows in April and how weed grows in the middle of a Rose garden, right? So, you understand how things happen that aren't supposed to.."

"What are you talking about?" he asked cautiously.

My heart was beating more than it ever has in my entire life and I wasn't sure if I wanted to continue his line of question, I am not sure if I can.

"I don't know, Tyler" I shook my head "I am just.. rambling"

He looked at me sympathetically, like he understood my fear, like he knew how scared I was.

He gave my hand a squeeze.

"You don't have to be afraid, Con. I am here when ever you're ready, you know that right?"

He looked at me, his greenish blue eyes filled with most sincerity I've ever seen.

"I know" I took a deep breath and prayed to God that I'd be able to take this out. It's now or never. "It's about Troye.." I bowed my head to avoid his gaze.

"What about Troye?" I felt his grip tightening on my - now clammy - hand.

My heart was was thumping in my chest so hard that I was afraid it may blow out anytime.

I had never felt this kind of fear in my entire life and I had no idea how to handle it. I tried to will my heartbeat to slow down but it dint seem to be working.

I took in a large volume of air, closed my eyes and said in a single breath..

"Troye kissed me last night"

[A/N :
So it seems like I am weirdly obsessed with writing flashbacks :p
But I think it's an interesting way to convey all the important things that I want you guys to know, umm..idk :p
I just hope you're liking it Thanks for all the views. I love you all :D
Mahi x ]