Danger Force Oneshots/incorrect

Reschedule

This is another oneshot of me pushing my emotions and something that happened into a character. This situation happened monday. I'll just make it so it's Mika instead of me so it's at my old school, with the same person.

Enjoy monday's mess of a night.

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All in Mikas POV:

"I think we'll have to reschedule again. I'm sorry Mika." Nicole says sympathetically. "It's all good." I show a smile to hide the disappointment. Miss.Perri comes upstairs and mentions that our tops match in colour. I look at Nicoles top, she isn't wrong. My smile has a tad bit of joy now. Miss.Perri comes up and Nicole goes down. I grab a seat at a table and wait for her to come back so we can talk about rescheduling again. The whole time I wait, I'm holding back tears.

I'm disappointed, I'm upset, I want to cry and my thoughts are going to be out of my control soon.

A teacher passes by and asks what I'm doing here. "I'm just waiting for Nicole. We have to reschedule something." I say, acting all fine. The teacher says okay and continues their way downstairs. I take my phone out and text one of my friends on instagram. 

"I'm probably going to have to reschedule with Nicole :(" I'm trying my best not to cry as I type this. She asks what happened and I tell her it's just another students personal stuff. She asks about tomorrow but I don't know, so I tell her I'm waiting. I talk with her more and the last thing she types is "Don't be too sad, I know it's sad and u wanna cry but be strong for your own self and be careful on the way back home."

After exiting the school I used to go to, I don't care anymore. I'm crying like I would in private. At the corner of my neighborhood, there's a man, so I put my head down. After I pass him, I put my head up and make some small hiccuping noises.

Right before I get home, I do deep breathes and try my best to collect myself before entering the house.

I put my stuff up in my room and go to the kitchen to get something to eat. "Are you okay Mika?" Mom asks from the sitting room. I tell her I'm fine. "Why were you crying?" She asks again. I don't answer so she tries to guess. Eventually she got that I couldn't see Nicole and she tries to talk to me. I tell her that she had to deal with stuff about another student and so on. I don't want to talk because I don't want to make a big deal about it.

When that little...conversation is over, I head downstairs and continue to cry. To make things worse, there's a minor battle of thoughts in my head.

'We had to reschedule again. The 2nd time within a week...'

'The kid was the most important thing. Suck it up.'

'It isn't fair."

'Life isn't fair. Suck it up.'

'I don't want to wait another week.'

'Well too bad bitch, you have to. Just suck it up.'

'Maybe I'll tell her when I see her.'

'She'll think it's a dumb reason to cry. Suck it up.'

'But it isn't. I'm upset about it, it's a big deal to me, I can cry.'

'No, you don't cry. You're crying for a dumb reason. Clearly the other kid is going through something worse, they have a right to cry, you don't cry over this. And in grade 10 too, seriously? Suck it up princess.'

'I was really excited...'

'So??'

'I feel guilty and selfish about being upset over not seeing her.'

'And why's that??'

'Cause the kid is dealing with worse...'

'Exactly. Now, SUCK. IT. UP.'

I can't help but continue to cry. I just want to see her again, not keep pushing the visit.

Some time later, I've stopped crying for the 2nd time and went to put my bowl from supper in the dish washer. There's still that thought telling me I'm being selfish and guilty. It isn't fair that this has such a negative effect on me.

*time skip cause the rest of it is crying and boring*

It's about 10:40pm and I'm off my phone. It's boring and I don't feel like going on it anymore. 'I'll just try and sleep.' I think.

Of course I'm successful but not without crying myself to sleep.

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Idrk how to end it off so I rushed it because I'm finishing this before class starts.

Anyways, please I am begging, do not think that I didn't want Nicole to help that student. I was just super excited and to have to cancel again crushed me, espexially since I love her to death.