If Only It Were A Dream

CHAPTER 9

CHAPTER 9

"His wolf needed reassurance that you still accepted them" Greyson told me calmly

I nodded my head slowly sort of understanding what he was telling me

"But there's something else that was weird..." I started,

How am I suppose to explain to him what I saw yesterday??

How his uh mate.. was acting, idk child-like..?

Greyson looked down at me with his piercing eyes.

"What was weird" his voice seemed to change to a more serious one

I had a slight hunch that he knew what I was talking about, so I just left it like that

"I heard what happened last night" a strong booming voice joined

The principal, who also happens to be called Xander. Yah found his name out this morning, when Luka woke up freaking out and told me he was going to see him.

"I was honestly not expecting you to allow him to sleep beside you" Xander accused looking down at me frowning. He seems to be doing a lot of frowning.

I rolled my eyes.

I brought my finger up, placing it between his brows.

"You should stop frowning, you'll get wrinkles" I told him boredly

He abruptly moved back. Shock on his face, his eyes avoiding mine...again.

"Yah well your the most annoying person I have every met, if only you hadn't came into our lives" Xander sneered, then walked away in long strides

My hand still frozen in the air, huhhhhhh?? What the fuck happened.

I looked back at Greyson.

Greyson was frowning and he seemed to almost be sad ..for me?

I don't care about useless rejections. But isn't he my mate? Or that's what they told me, no? Or was that just part of some sick mind twisting game.

"Uh, I need to go to class" I say absentmindedly

I walked away, my head becoming a little fuzzy

I couldn't concentrate in any of my classes. What the fuck is actually wrong with me, no like for real.

I keep thinking back to the rude ass comment Xander told me. Like I thought I was a bitch, well he definitely beats me at that now, like damn.

During lunch it got worst. I started feeling a little light headed, so I decided to just go back to my dorms and chill there for the time being, its not like we're learning anything important.

Supper came, and I didn't feel like going downstairs to get my food, so I just ate a couple of snacks that I had.

It was already 11pm, and Luka hadn't came back. So I just gave up on waiting for him. I went to sleep, my energy quickly draining from my body.

Xander's POV

"Xander please come out, are you okay" Grayson's voice echoed from the other side of the door.

I had my back to the door, sitting down on the floor.

My chest was burning up, a stabbing feeling coming from my stomach.

Fuck it's all cause of that human bitch

The pain shot at full force, almost making me whimper. Me! A 6"5 Alpha whimpering! That's honestly just too fucking embarrassing.

Why didn't I kick her out sooner

"Xander" Theo, my wolf, started

No you too shut the fuck up. Its also your fault. Why are you so desperate for this human girl, she's so small and weak.

My wolf blocks me out, leaving me to my own thoughts again.

Stupid wolf, stupid mate bond.

A soft knock comes from the door this time

"Xandy" my babyboy starts softly,

"Are you okay?" His voice breaking in sadness

I wanted to answer him, god I really wanted to answer him. But if I even opened my mouth ajar, I fear only screams of pain would exit.

"He just needs to be alone Luka, we'll come see him later okay baby?" Greyson said softly but sadly

Good choice

I could hear Luka's small retreating foot steps. I let out a shaky breath

"I know your in great pain Xander. Let me bring Mariana, please. You can't continue like this" Greyson begged

"I told you I didn't want this wannabe bitch close to me Greyson! Can't you fucking listen for once!! Jesus Christ" my anger got the best of me.. again,

Greyson sighed, "Okay" he started

I waited for him to continue, bitting my lip till it bled, trying to distract the pain in my chest by another form of pain.

"But if your not better tomorrow, she's coming" Greyson finalized, walking away

A small tear fell from my eye, but I wiped it away furiously.

Alphas don't cry

...

"Boy are you crying like a pathetic Omega!?" My father yelled at me

I was 12 years old. My father was the Alpha of our big amazing pack.

He was a very well respected alpha.

People feared him, so they respected him.

He always told me I had to be strong and dangerous, or else no one would take me seriously, they'd only see me as a pathetic alpha who would never be able to protect his pack.

What my father did to me, I don't think I could ever forget.

I was a child, yet no childhood.

I was a soldier in his eyes. I couldn't have friends and definitely no lovers.

I had no freedom,

I was a mouse, and he was a snake

But he's not here anymore, and yet it feels as if he never left.

I can almost still hear him yelling at me, or the pain he inflicted

He will always be there

....

I woke up groggily, seeing that I was still on the ground.

The pain in my chest still very present, fuck I don't think I can move.

I need to go to work, I have responsibilities, fucking fuck.

A knock was heard from the door

"I'm going to get her" Greyson voice echoed leaving no argument

But even if I wanted to argue, I don't think I could even open my mouth. Why is this shit so painful.

Fuck, now Mariana will see this pathetic state of myself

I'm so fucking pathetic