Saving Her

Chapter 45: Where Do Broken Hearts Go?

Zayn's POV:

I'm standing in the kitchen, leaning against the sideboard when Audrey comes in. She's wearing a pair of leggings and one of my t-shirts.

Our eyes meet and she sends me a sad smile, coming over to my side. I pull her into a hug, kissing the side of her head.

"Good morning, Tigre" I spoke calmly, leaning down to bury my head in her neck and taking a deep breath.

"Good morning, Zee" she responds, wrapping her arms around my waist.

"You smell like him," I mumble, breathing in again, smelling Leo's cologne on her.

"Sorry, I can go change if you want." She simply states, I frown and furrow my eyebrows.

"No, don't do that." I quickly state, grabbing onto the shirt she's wearing; pulling her closer.

She sighs, before stepping away from me, leaning up and kissing me before moving to the fridge.

I watch her as she grabs a water and her milk from the fridge before going to the cupboard and pulling at cereal, then a bowl and a spoon. She sits in her usual spot at the counter and silently puts her cereal together.

I walk over behind her, wrapping my arms around her, and leaning against her back. I bury my head in the side of her neck and just sit there while she eats. Inhaling her's and Leo's mixed smell.

"Can you make me toast? With Lee's jam? That sounds so fucking good right now." She asks. I smile and nod, moving over to the toaster and putting the bread in before grabbing the jam from the fridge.

I hand her the toast just as I hear Leo's footsteps coming down the stairs.

"That was a fast shower," Audrey spoke from where she sat as he walks in with wet hair, wearing jeans and a t-shirt. God, he's so fucking hot.

"Yeah, I really just washed my hair." He shrugs, moving to kiss her head. "You're using my jam? You don't even like figs? Or jam, for that matter?" He asks, grabbing a piece of toast from her plate and taking a bite from the corner.

"Yeah, it's really not that good actually. I was craving it. But now that I have it, it's not as good as it sounded. Not at all actually." She chuckles, pushing the plate with the toast over to Leo. Who gladly eats it for her. I just sit and watch them interact with each other, before my eyes find themselves traveling down Leo's outfit again.

"Why are you fully dressed?" I ask, not even meaning to interrupt their conversation. "Sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt your conversation. I just noticed you were dressed in actual clothes while Audrey and I look like we just climbed out of bed." I state, looking down at my sweatpants.

Audrey finishes her breakfast before standing and putting her things away.

"I'm going up to Zayn's room, I'm gonna go draw some, haven't done it in a while, I feel like shit, I'll be down later on. Will you guys like, try to talk about some shit?" Audrey speaks up, not waiting for our answer as she leaves the room.

Leo looks at me, I look at him. I look at his eyes, I look at his hair, his jawline, his neck. I look at the shirt he's wearing; it's simple, black. It's tight against his arms from how much he's been working out lately. I look at his pants, which fit snugly against his legs, yet somehow dip on his hips. If he didn't have a shirt on they'd show off the top of his v-line. His abs would be glistening from the shower. I look at his hands, they're somehow rough and soft all in one. I look at his lips, the perfect shade of pink. He's everything, everything I want.

I miss him, god I miss him. I want him back. I should just push all of this away and forgive him. We were never official. It's fine. He didn't actually cheat. He was never mine. This fight is stupid. I should just tell him I love him and put this all behind us.