Saving Her

Chapter 46: Confrontations

Two Days Later
35 weeks pregnant

Audriella's POV:

I haven't seen much of Zayn in days. He spends most of his time at the marina or in meetings. We've barely seen each other. He promises it's nothing to do with me, just the fact the Leo left. He said his mind is too busy to be home doing nothing, he needs to work. Or 'shoot something' as he put it.

Zayn's not in the kitchen. I sigh and head into the gym. I see him standing, both hands on the wall-length window with his head down, a lit joint firmly grasped between his lips.

I walk over to him, the smell of weed strong throughout the room. I put my hand on his back, he doesn't flinch, but quickly moves to drop the joint and step on it, putting it out. He takes a deep breath before looking at me, with tear-stained cheeks. He glances down at my stomach and quickly opens the door out to the pool, cool air flows through.

"Audrey, shit. I didn't know you were going to come in here, I would have went outside. Cazzo, you shouldn't be around the smoke and shit." He panics waving his arms around me to get the smell and remaining smoke away.

I chuckle "It's fine Zayn. I doubt being around you this one time will do anything to the girls." I smile softly holding my hand on his cheeks, stepping closer. He holds my hips, running his thumb over the skin where my shirt rode up slightly.

"You knew?" He asked, barely above a whisper. I just nod. "You knew he was going to leave me?" I nod again. "Why...Why didn't you tell me, Ella? I would...I would have..." He stutters

"No, you wouldn't have, Zayn. You wouldn't have done anything to make him stay. You would have gotten pissed off and started a bigger fight." I sighed, running my hands down his arms.

"I didn't want him to leave, Audrey. I didn't...I just..." He trailed off, staring into my eyes.

Maybe Luna's right, maybe this will work.

"He's done. He's done with me. Everything that I did means nothing now. Everything I worked on, trying to actually listen to my feelings, understanding what he meant to me, all of that work means nothing because I couldn't forgive him. Because I can't forgive him. But I didn't want him to leave? I just needed time, I needed more time." He spoke softly

"No you didn't, Zayn." I sigh, putting my hand on the side of his face. "Sure, maybe you didn't forgive him yet. That's fine, we understand. You have every right to be upset about it. But if you don't want to be with him knowing what happened then there's no reason for him to be here. Not when you barely speak to him. Not when you keep throwing the fact that he hurt you in his face. Because he knows, Zayn. He knows that he hurt you. That's why he left. So you didn't have to hurt as much by seeing him." I tried to explain.

"I do want to be with him, I fucking love him, Audrey. I just...I couldn't...." He trailed off looking around the room "I can't feel like this anymore..." he trails off again. I continue watching him as he starts pacing around. When he stops, his back is facing me, and he bends over and puts his hands on his knees.

He suddenly stands up and faces me; his eyes blank, giving me a small smile. "I'm fine. It's fine. If he wants to leave then let him. I don't care. If he wants out he can get out. I don't know why I was so fucking broken about this anyway. It's just Leone. He's not anyone special." he shrugs before heading back into the house.

"Wait...what? Zayn!?" I yell after him. Confused. What the hell just happened? He hasn't been able to turn it off at all this entire time, yet now he can?

Maybe this won't work after all.

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