No Control (L.S BDSM)

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This chapter was edited the 18.02.2023

Louis William Tomlinson:

"Harry please call me" the endless messages and calls trying to reach for him, but I don't know where he is, how he is and if he will ever let me see him again. They say the hardest happenings in your life is what's change you, what's make you a better human. He opened my eyes. The weeks without him made me bleed in a way I never thought someone could bleed. The tons of ice cream and sleepless nights don't make it any better, it just makes me miss him even more. The pain of knowing I broke someone I so deeply cared for. And someone I believe I loved, and still love today.

"Mr. Tomlinson, Mrs. Stephanie Solans is here to apply for the job as your personal assistant"

"I don't want her. When is Harry Styles coming back?"

"Sir, I don't think you should expect him to come back. He resigned yesterday" why are I first informed about this now? Wouldn't they find it important that the boss knew his assistant resigned?

"And you let him? He was here?"

"He did, he told me to give you this letter"

"Then give it to me thank you and leave" I snapped and reached for the letter. Quickly opening it and starting to read.

Dear Louis,

I love you, but I know it's not genuine. I won't bother you anymore. You should look for a new and more obedient submissive. I know I didn't please you well enough, I could tell.

Love, Harry.

A tear escaping my eye. Not one. An ocean. I lost the one thing I don't want to live without. He could tell. But baby, you see it the wrong way. You changed me a way no submissive has ever done. The things I did to them, is something I love you too much to think about. I didn't want you to obey me all the time. You are the one no one can ever replace.

"Zayn, I need you" I spoke into the phone after he answered my call.

"Come to the club, and I will be there"

"Actually, can we meet somewhere else?" and he agreed to meet me at my house in twenty minutes. I arrived ten minutes later and threw myself at the couch. The feeling of loneliness made the tears escape once more. The memories of laying here with Harry in my arms watching stupid Disney movies with chocolate and candles.

"Louis? Are you okay?" Zayn walked in the door and was now standing in front of me with a worried expression on his face. I know he have never seen me cry before, no one has.

"He left"

"Harry?"

"Who else?"

"I don't know Louis. Why did he leave?" he asked sitting down beside me, laying an arm around my shoulders.

"He loves me. And I think I love him too, but I found out too late and now I don't know where he is" I sobbed into the pillow protecting me from every enemy.

"I know you love him Louis, I could tell the day I first met him. The way you two stare at each other, the way you fell weak for him its so obvious. I'm sure Harry felt loved most of the time, he just didn't know you love him back, so he probably thought you just acted because that's a dominants role in many peoples point of view" he explained. And he was right. There had been many times where I showed love towards Harry, and I truly meant it all the time, but he didn't know I meant it the way as I did.

"But how do I find him?"

"He is going out for lunch with my sub tomorrow, so I could try to tell Jonas to try to say you miss him"

"Is Harry looking for a new dominant?" I asked stressed out that he will walk forward in life without me by his side. I don't want any mans dirty hands on the pure skin of my baby. He is to innocent to be touched.

"No don't think so. I mean I know Harry would never want a dominant if it wasn't you Louis. He loves doing kinky things just because it's with you"

"I don't want him with anyone else" I possessively told my friend.

"Don't be scared Louis, he will be yours again, you just have to earn his forgiveness"