No Control (L.S BDSM)

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Word count: 2137
This chapter was edited the 19.02.2023

Harry Edward Tomlinson:

It's when you are afraid to lose someone you understand how precious they are. How much place of your heart, your brain, your day they took and filled with love, curiosity, and care. So, when you have understood it, how do you walk forward? Are you going to walk into each day with a worried feeling that this might be the last day? Or are you going to live every day to their fullest, so you can look back on a happily life when the ending date arrive. Being scared, being worried is normal, we should never unnormalize it. Living with someone you love is not an easy chapter of a book, but it's necessary to find the right way at the crossroads.

"Harry I'm going to work, there is no point in trying to tell me otherwise" Louis tells me putting on the cufflinks on his suit.

"You had a heart attack just three days ago Louis" I tell my stubborn husband that never seem to take my opinions in to consideration. He knows best for himself he says, but he only sees himself from the inside, I know the outside. He looks tired and I know he needs some rest before he gets burned out. Who wouldn't need rest and a lot of cuddles after they thought they lost their husband? You wouldn't have had the heart attack if it wasn't for the reason that you were scared Louis. I can see through you. And I'm sure the only reason why I didn't have one myself was that I knew I had to fight for us two, us three.

"Look baby, I know you are worried about me, but I'm telling you I'm fine. If you need some more days at home before coming back that's okay"

"Yes I was God damn scared that evening Louis, and I'm in my fully right to still be worried about you. I thought I lost you for God sake. Can't you get that into your head?" I yell at him in frustration throwing my hands in my face. I hear that he lets out a heavy breath, before sitting down besides me at the bed. He puts his arm around my shoulder and kisses the side of my head.

"I know baby, I'm sorry. Will it be better for you if we work from home today?" he asks rubbing circles over my back trying to calm down my sobs.

"I just need you to be around me. I can't have you leave me now. Leave us" I tell him thinking of our star growing in my belly. He is growing bigger for each day, and it becomes more and more real that he one day is going to join us in this world.

"Harry Edward Tomlinson. I married you. I made you pregnant. I could never leave you even if you wanted me to" he scolds me as best as he can with some small tears in the crotch of his eyes. The amount of tears coming from Louis's eyes the latest days have truly made me love him even more. I feel like he has opened up for me in a way I never thought he would.

"If we can work from home then I would love that. Niall wanted to come over by the way. I've been a bad friend for him lately" I tell Louis. After I moved in with Louis and Niall moved in with Liam we have seen each other at very few occasions. Seeing him in the hospital some days ago made me realise how much I've missed him.

"Let's invite both of them to lunch. Liam mentioned he wanted to catch up with Zayn as well" Louis tells me.

"As long as Zayn don't turn too dominant at Jones then I fine with it" I say making Louis laugh.

"You know Jonas is much better on hiding the fact that he is a submissive than you will ever be. I can give you one stare Harry and you look like you are kneeling down mentally" he says, making me blush at his words.

"Stop ittt. You call them, and I will work on the food with Marion" I tell Louis as I see he is starting to take off his suit jacket, going with the shirt and the suit pants. He puts on the cardigan I knitted him. The blue colour of it matches his eyes perfectly.