No Control (L.S BDSM)

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This chapter was edited the 18.02.2023

Harry Edward Styles:

Maybe you don't know what's lost until you find it.

"Hi Jonas, it's nice to see you again" I say as I found the table in the restaurant where I'm meeting up with Jonas, the submissive of Louis's friend Zayn. After the day I left Louis's parents party, I've been heartbroken, mostly because I didn't understand why it had to end like it did.

"Hi, how are you doing? Zayn told me about the split" he asked straight away. Well then he is informed so I don't have to tell the whole story myself.

"I'm dealing I guess"

"I know you loved him Harry, we all could tell"

"I mean yes of course I did, it's impossible to not fall in love with Louis. I just guess the submissive dominant thing wasn't my sort of lifestyle, and Louis needs it in his life"

"Many are husbands and still does BDSM Harry, there are still possibilities"

"No there isn't. He would never love me back Jonas, and that's just something I have to accept by now. I can't keep on living in a fantasy world where me and Louis is a lovely couple and have kids and cats" I told him while the waitress sat down our food in front of us. I guess she could tell by my mood what had happened to me, but I couldn't care more.

"I think he loves you more than you think. But that's not my conversation to do"

"What do you mean?"

"I think you and Louis at least should talk this out to know why it ended as it did instead of sitting alone now and not knowing what the other one feels"

"Our contract ends in three days, what's the point?" meeting him would anyways just mess with my feelings that I've spent a week on to somehow control. I don't want to feel so weak ever again.

"The point is that I believe it will do both of you a favour. Anyways you guys are both attending the weeding the 28th so you kind of have to see each other. For everyone else sake please do it beforehand"

"I can send him a text message I guess"

"Actually, there is no need. I told him to join us, so he is here" and he is right. Just as his words left his mouth Louis walked into the restaurant in his suit. Looking hot as always, just different, he looked exhausted, tired, lifeless.

"Don't hate me Harry"

"Can't promise anything" I madly said rolling my eyes as he walked towards Zayn who was also coming with Louis. They found a table in the other end of the restaurant to enjoy their meal.

"Harry" he spoke as his slow steps reach the table I was sitting at. His eyes held a glimpse of sadness, of regret.

"Why are you here?"

"I need to talk to you"

"Oh really? And which right do you have to demand that?" I mocked him. There was no way he would get off this easily. He sat down at the chair Jonas had left him and inhaled a few breaths. He was looking me up and down. Checking me out.

"I know I hurt you Harry, but you hurt me too" he defensive spoke.

"Really? I hurt you? How?" I laughed under my breath by his ridiculous comment. Trying to act strong was my only chance to not break into tears right now. How much I could wish we just got over this fight and could cuddle up again.

"Why didn't you tell me you loved me?" he asked, his voice soft and low, nothing like the dominant voice he would usually have.

"It wouldn't change anything would it? You wanted a submissive, I tried, and I failed to do so"