No Control (L.S BDSM)

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This chapter was written the 21.03.2023

Louis William Tomlinson:

Does everything has to be fair? There are many differences in between us, we got the clear ones; height, looks and nationality. Much you can spot and hear. Then we got the hidden ones; sexuality, feelings, self-imagine to be mentioning some. Both the clear and hidden differences between us is making each human unique. What's seemed as fair will differ from each person, so it will never be easy to define the word, nor end up with a fair world. There will always be someone who disagree and some who agree. There might be unfairness in a relationship, in a society and in the world, but if we are okay with the differences sometimes has to make things unfair, then the answer to the question might be 'no'.

"But Louis, all the dominants got to watch the submissive training, it would only be fair that we got to watch yours training" Harry argues. I'm soon off to the training course, which I must say I'm not looking much forward to, and Harry can't stop arguing. He got a curious mind.

"Give me one good reason" I challenge him, because I can't find any myself at the moment.

"Niall is allowed" he tell me. Like the hell he is.

"That's a reason. I wanted a good one Harry. A reason that can make me understand what you will get out of watching this. The only friends of yours that is going is those who identify as switches, and from what I've experienced and communicated with you I do not think that's the case is it?"

"Let me put it this way. You watch our training to take care of us and guide us. If we are watching your training we would be able to understand what you do, and more of the dominant's task. It would give us more understanding which can make the dynamic stronger. It could lead us to understand the concerns you might are holding, so we can take care of you back" he explains, and to be fair, his point is very good, and I'm impressed by his reflected mind shining in front of me now.

"That is indeed a good point Harry. But as you said we dominants take care of you and guide you. We like to show off strength, and not every dominant like to show of their weaker sides and feelings" I was that guy before I met you Harry. I wouldn't let anyone see me as someone else than the man standing tall, having it all under control. You broke down all control I ever had builded tall walls off. Now they are shattered into pieces, and you keep them puzzled together with your existence.

"But you show your feelings to me, I mean most of the time" he questions, soft voice.

"That would be because I'm not only your dominant, but I'm also your husband as well. If you are watching it would have to be okay with each of the dominants in the room"

"Of course, I know dominant has colours as well Louis. Wait what happens if a dominant colour out?" he asks, and for the first time I do not know how to answer his question.

"Uhm I mean I don't know to be completely honest Harry. I guess some would search for some closeness with another dominant, and others would go into themselves and work on it alone. I have never coloured out before, so I wouldn't know"

"I think that is the first time you haven't known what to answer me" he says, I feel a shiver go through my body as he leaves the words out of his mouth. I feel like I've disappointed him.

"I- I'm sorry baby- I wish" I start, letting the insecurity show off to him.

"Don't be. I've always admired the impressive amount of knowledge you have Louis, both about the lifestyle and about general things. But now you impressed me more than you could ever do with your knowledge. You accepted that you don't always know yourself, instead of trying to answer something that might wasn't right. It takes the most strength to let out things you don't know, because youre unsure if the one listening will be okay with your answer"