"he has persuasive lips but terrible motives."
a story about young people navigating love, friendship, drugs and becoming an adult.
content warnings: mature content and descriptions of drugs, suicide and overdose.
edited in dec 2022.
For a second, she stood there in disbelief. She had been lying to herself thinking that it was different with her, nothing like the other girls he had been fooling around with. Isa barely recognized him when she met his gaze.
"Sorry..." Isabella mumbled before turning around and walking out. She wasn't going to make a scene, he didn't deserve that. And if he didn't care then fine. She rushed down the stairs, almost running over Ray who stood by the end of the stairs.
"Woah, where you going Isa?"
"You were right, now you can tell me 'I told you so'. He doesn't give a shit and he's fucking Angela upstairs."
She moved on without needing an answer and Ray didn't stop her. She was looking for an Estee, finding her outside smoking on the patio.
"Estee... you know everyone here. Who's selling?"
"Wait are you-" She didn't get to finish her sentence before Isabella spoke again.
"Just tell me who." She had been doing so well ever since she came to LA. No drugs except for smoking with Fuckshit every now and then but that was all. Now she wanted something to party on, something that would help her feel better.
"Nick..." She motioned to a guy standing a few feet away with a beer in his hands and smoking a cigarette. She didn't say anything else to her and moved to walk up to the stranger.
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"I wanna buy." She told him bluntly. When their eyes met she got a good look at him, he was a good looking guy with nice hazel eyes.
"Do I know you?" he replied nonchalantly, taking a sip from his beer.
"I'm Isabella, now you know me. So can I buy or not?" She was serious as she looked at him.
"Hm... What do you want?"
"X." It was her go to when she wanted to party.
"How much money you got?" She went through her pockets to see what she had. Isa didn't care if she was getting ripped off, she just wanted something to feel better.
"30 bucks." He put his hand in his pocket and took out a little bag with a few pills.
"I'm being generous since you a first time customer." She handed him the cash and then got the pills
"I'm Nick by the way."
"I know." He grinned at her, amused by her reply.
"See ya around Isabella." He said and she turned around.
Isabella went back inside and into the kitchen to get something to swallow it with. She poured up some punch and discreetly put the pill in her mouth. It would last her a good few hours, especially since she had practically been sober for weeks. She downed her drink and saw Estee back inside.
"I wanna dance!" Estee looked at her surprised but didn't complain when Isa grabbed her hands and pulled her onto the dance floor. After a moment she could feel the pill kick in. It made her forget all about Fuckshit for a moment. The rest of the girls joined in but Angela was nowhere to be found. A few guys started to dance with them and Isa didn't mind.
She saw Ruben on the couch looking bored, she went over and took his hand to drag him to dance. She motioned for fourthgrade and stevie to join. Fuckshit wasn't there and neither was Ray. Better without them, she thought. Fourthgrade got out his camera and started filming them all dancing together. It felt euphoric.
//
Ray had dragged Fuckshit outside to talk.
"What the fuck are you on?" Ray knew his best friend inside and out and he could tell something was wrong. Sure Fuckshit smoked a lot but it wasn't that.
"I don't know what you talkin' about man." He said with slurred words.
"You really fucked up tonight. She's your friend, fuck, she's all of our friend."
"Why do you care? You wanna fuck her or something?" Ray just sighed deeply.
"She's our friend. You don't play around like that with friends."
"You don't know anything." Fuckshit said, taking a step closer to look him in the eyes.
"Fine. Come talk to me when you're sober."
Fuckshit had his flaws but he was a great guy. Whenever Ray needed him, he was there. No matter what. But the Fuckshit he had in front of him now was nothing like the guy he knew.
//
It was getting late and most people had already left. Stevie and ruben had already left to follow their curfews. Isabella was sitting on the sofa with fourthgrade, both tired.
"We should go." Isa told him and he nodded.
They got up and just as they were gonna go through the door, she felt someone grab her by the arm. It was Nick.
"Here." He held out a note with his number on it.
"If you need refills... Or company. I'm down for whatever." She smiled as she took the note from him, it certainly could be useful in the future. In one way or another.
"Bye." She smiled before turning to Fourthgrade and walking out.
Isabella successfully turned the night around. She got him off his mind and she had been able to let loose, just be in the moment. Which was something she struggled with.
