The Love I Missed

Chapter 9

Zaijah,

I can't believe my bestfriend is pregnant. Kaliah is going to be a great mother and i'll make sure to help her through this. We keeping the pregnancy between us until she tell Kalin. Then she going to tell the girls. I gave her a whole preach about why she should tell him and not get rid of it, and she agreed with me and told me she will tell him. So I'm praying it goes well because I don't want to have to argue with a man that ain't my nigga, that's some ghetto shit.

Kiron said he gon' pick me up from work today. So right now i'm waiting on him to pull up. Around 10 minutes later he arrived.

"Sup ma" he pulled me in for a kiss.
"I'm good"
He opened the passenger side of the hellcat and I went in then he jogged to his side.
"How was work?" I asked him.
"I have suspicions on a few people I may need to get rid off"
I nodded slowly before connecting my phone to the bluetooth and playing, broken clocks by sza.

"Been about three years since I dated you! Why! You! Still! Talking! Bout' me like we together!" I sang with my heart and posted it on my snapchat private story.
I could relate to the first line.

"Sing it ma!" Rey encouraged.

We pulled up to his crib and went inside. I took a shower and put on some black lingerie I bought on the way home from going cinema with the girls. I wore black booty shorts and a black cami top.

I laid in the bed watching people's instagram stories while Rey was in the shower.

"What you wanna do tomorrow baby?" He asked me as he was grinding his weed.
"We can go to the shooting range" I shrugged.
"Aight"

He licked the joint closed staring at me and butterflies surrounded my stomach. I broke eye contact and I heard him light the joint. He took a pull still glaring at me.

"Why you staring?"
"Because I can't believe your mine"
I smiled and shook my head.

He got in the bed with me and turned on the tv.
He smoked for a bit before looking at me with red low eyes.

"You want sum?" I nodded and took a pull.
"You look fine af when you high" I told him.
He laughed before putting his arm around me.
I took a few pulls and passed it back. I don't want to be too high because I don't like being paranoid.
I laid on my side watching him blow the smoke out his mouth.

"Why do you always get high?"
"Because when i'm not I think about my father's death. If I wasn't in jail then just maybe he'd be alive right now telling me how proud he is that I was able to keep a girl" he slightly chuckled.

"Don't blame yourself. It's not your fault, your father is looking down at you and he's proud."
"Looking up" he muttered and I rolled my eyes.

"Don't blame yourself for a situation where there is no way you could've fixed it" I kissed his cheek and he nodded.

I held me by my neck and practically shoved his tongue down my throat.
"You- nasty-" I said in the kiss.
He pulled away and laughed "you ain't see nasty yet baby"
"You too freaky for me" I scrunched up my face playfully.
"You love it here"
I laughed.

I connected my spotify to the tv and played my love playlist including sza, summer walker, trey songz and more.
Rey looked over at me and raised a brow.

I took his blunt and put it out before climbing on top of him. I kissed down his neck and he sucked in a breath.
He grabbed my waist and I took off my cami top and his eyes lit up. He admired my body before taking off his white tank. Rey flipped us over so that I was underneath and I took off my shorts.
"Like what you see?"
"Fasho, but it's coming off!"