The Love I Missed

Chapter 32

Rey walked into the apartment to see Zai in the living room trying to stop JJ crying.

"Jamarni come on. Mama wants to sleep" she was a bit frustrated since she was tired but JJ was being fussy.

"Zai."
She turned around to look at Rey then put her attention back on her son.
Rey walked over and took JJ out her arms to help calm him down.

"You was out all fucking night, ignoring my calls Kiron. What was you doing? I thought you was leaving the streets" she said in a aggravated tone and stood up.

"I was but I can't, niggas keep stealing from me and they not gon stop unless i'm around. Ma, you been knew what you was getting into when you said yes to being my girlfriend. I have to work and get money to provide for our family"

JJ started to calm down as Rey rocked him.

Zaijah,
"Okay but you got the club downtown that you, Kal and Eli run, so why can't you just leave the streets"

"Imma go put down JJ" he had an emotionless face as he walked past me to put him down. He came back and plopped on the couch and motioned me to come over.

He pulled me on to his lap, "I'm stuck in these streets love" he lifted my chin. "If i'm not around the whole trap will fall apart and niggas gon think they can try me. And yes we making money from the club and it's going to take sometime to convert all my dirty money to clean."

I took a deep breath and broke eye contact. "We have the money, let's move states, like new york or houston texas"
"What?" He scrunched up his face and shook his head. "Nah you tripping forreal"

"You forgetting we have a son, his life is in danger" I stared and him but he rubbed his nose and looked away.

"Aight, look. Once all my money is clear then i'll be off these streets"
"Baby, I don't believe a word coming out your mouth" I told him truthfully and he looked off to the side.

"Manee come onn" he adjusted himself beneath me. "I'd never put you or Jamarni in danger and I put that on my pops. Don't ever think y'all ain't my no.1 priority, cause y'all come before these streets aight?"
I nodded slowly.

"I barely go to the trap anymore, we spend more time together now, the only times I'm not wit' you is if i'm chilling with the guys or I got sum important to do" he shrugged.

"Do you still love me Kiron" I furrowed my eyebrows and looked him dead in the eye.
"I- Yes what the fuck. I'll always love you Zaijah, no one tops you. On gang" he wrapped his hands around my neck and pulled me close to his face to point where I could hear his breathing.

"I fucking love you Zaijah" he whispered in my ear. "You taught a hood nigga how to love and i'll always 'preciate you for that, you gave me my son, you worth everything in the world to me, you hear that?"

I nodded, "I love you too" I wiped the tear that rolled down my cheeks.
"Understand that I have no choice baby, what if I leave these streets and niggas pull up on me and kill me."
"Don't say that Rey" A mug grew on my face.

"Nawl cause you don't understand. Tblock is my protection and also my family, my father passed it down to me, he went through suffering to built this shit and i'm not going to let it go because-"

"Because of me" I nodded to myself "You really sound dumb as fuck" I mugged him.

"Let me finish, because we won't be safe. Please mane.... Got a nigga begging and shit, i'm whipped as fuck" he joked and I sat there with a straight face.

"Your my only family Kiron" I held on to his chain. "And I don't want to loose you" he licked his lips and stood up holding me.

"You won't, i'm a king pin up in this bitch!!!" He joked and chuckled then I rolled my eyes.
"And you my bitchh" I dragged saying it in the same tone while fake grinding on him waving my arm in the air.