IT ALL STARTED ON SET - Sadie Sink Female x female

open up y/n

OPEN UP Y/N - part 10

your POV

"wanna sneak out?" i asked
"huh?"
"wanna sneak out?"
"okay?"
"we will leave a note if he needs us in the middle of the night." i smiled.
i gave sadie a hoodie because it was cold outside. no matter how summer it is, 2am is 2am.

we just walked.
"i love being with you." she spilled. i think she said it by accident. "i mean-"
"i love being with you too." i smiled.

we walked silently. it wasnt an awkward silent.
"are you okay y/n? like for real. you always say yes but i dont th, you dont look okay to be honest."
how could she tell? i thought i pretended it well.
"im fine. i am happy because i found you and the cast and everyone is nice."
"i am happy for you but are you okay like mentally."
i walked silently.
"i can see you are struggling y/n. you are good at hiding it but not from me. you dont have to tell me of course i am just worried about you."
"i miss my mom." i spilled. she said nothing for a sec.
"does your parents divorced or-" her voice craks.
"well they are divorced."
"when are you going to see her again?"
"i dont know. never?" i whispered.
she stopped, looked at me and was just thinking for another second.
"you can tell me y/n i wont tell anyone." she whispered.
"she wasnt a good mother and later she found out something about me and she made it a big deal and that was the last thing my dad could stand so he divorced. she lived with us for a little longer but one night she just left. basically thats it. we never really had a good relationship tho but still."

she hugged me. and hugged. her hugs are so comfy. i wanna stop the time right now so i can be between her hands forever.
"i am sorry." she whispered. "i am also sorry if you werent comfortable about telling me this."
"no, i, i trust you." i whispered.

we were looking in to each others eyes. her eyes are like heaven. she is like heaven.
and in the moment i realized that i cant avoid this feeling anymore.

i am in love with sadie sink.

"its around 3am and im tired." i said awkwardly looking away.
VERY AWKWARDLY.
"yes me too."
we walked back to mine and went to sleep.

i dont know what im gonna do. i cant tell her and i cant tell to anyone this expect press and grace.
i have to work with her for years while i have this feeling.

i am fucked up.

when i woke up in the morning i was alone in my room.
she didnt left right? was that that bas awkward yesterday?
i quickly get up and ran downstairs.

i saw sadie talking with my dad. okay.
i was so happy, she has a good relationship with my dad. YES.

"what are we talking about?" i said as sat down next to sadie. my dad was making breakfast.
"filming ." she smiled.
"when did you woke up?"
"a hour ago."
"y/n remind me that we are put of bread. we have only these one left. but we have waffle and pancakes mixs, yoghurts so you can eat." he said with a stronger voice.

my dad made scrambled egg toasts. and coffee of course. we are eating together i guess. cool.
she talked about her family, friends, life etc so my dad can know her better.

"i am happy that you like my dad."
"he is nice and kind so ofc." she smiled.
we were back in my room again. we downloaded a truth or dare game and we only played truth.
yes this is our 'im boring lets play something' game.

"when was your first kiss?" i read out loud to her from my phone.
"at 14, during stranger things 2 filming."
"he was your first kiss?"
"yes." she laughed. "your turn, whats your favorite food?"
"mac n cheese. what is your favorite fast-food restaurant."
"chick fil a. whats one thing you love most about yourself?"
"my hair maybe. who is your secret celeb crush?"
she froze.
"uh, i dont have any." ouch.
"lana del rey or billie eilish?" she read the next question.

"billie. how did you knew?"
"what?" i smiled. "how did i knew what?" she asked.
i just looked into her beautiful eyes. she was staring at me and i am just so in love with her. fuck again.
she smiled at me."its not what the phone says y/n."
i stared at her with a 'idgaf just answer look"
"ok. its obvious."
"i never heard anyone before aksing about my sexuality tho. so?" i laughed.
"i just knew." she smiled.
"you have to give me an answer answer!"
"i did, i just knew. so your turn. whats your sexuality?"
"thats not what the phone says." i said softly and smiled.
"i dont really care." she answered lightly. flirty. it was hot.

"i am bisexual. my turn. whats your sexuality." i whispered.
our talk became flirty. its gonna be awkward if she doesnt kiss me at the end.
she just smiled at me searching for her worlds.
"i think, i am lesbian. i dont know."
"omg! i am so proud of you!" i said and i jumped on her to hug her.

a long long tight hug.

do i have a chance?