I had just made my way up the everlasting stairs when the door bell rang. I sighed running down the stairs and opening it to see Luke standing there. I didn't realize I didn't know him that well and this could get weird fast.
"Oh.. Uh sorry I still have to get ready." I stuttered looking down cause of my tear stained and bruised face.
"You look fine like that." Luke said and I just laughed causing him to give me a confused look. I just sighed and ran up the stairs, Luke following behind me.
"Wait out here while I get dressed." I said before closing my door in his face. I put on my Blink-182 tank and my flannel pants and a pair of moccasins. Pretty boring and plain but I was to tired and lifeless. I let Luke back in my room. He took a seat on my bed and I went up the few steps I had in my room to play music in the loft. I jumped over all the stairs on the ground and flipped over. Luke looked shocked and laughed.
"You had quite the mode change didn't you?" He laughed as I jumped up almost falling.
"This song is the shit man how can't you like it?!" I yelled screaming the lyrics to That's what you get by Paramore.
Thats what you get when let you're heart win, whoa
that's what you get when you let you're heart win, whoa
I drowned out all my senses with the sound of its beating
and thats what you get when you let your heart win
Luke looked at me laughing.
"You're an amazing singer Nicole." right with the comment I sat down and started doing my makeup totally ignoring his comment. Starting to cover the numerous bruises and cuts, including the huge circles and bags. My mascara started clumping and I screamed rubbing my face and throwing it across the room something I normally wouldn't that but I was so tired of compliments and people trying to make me feel better about myself and what I did. I soon started throwing stuff around my room and screaming how I hate everything after about 7 minuets of throwing stuff and screaming I leaned against the wall and slid down it crying my heart out. It hurt. Damn it hurt so bad to think about it. I didn't know how to handle it. When it first happened I didn't think much of it and pushed all the pain and hurt aside and partied. Drugs, alcohol and hooking up with any guy that showed interest and that's when things with Matt got a little weird and complicated. One day i realized what I was doing was not okay. Amara, Michael and Calum helped me get back on my feet and now about 4 months later all grief, pain and guilt comes crashing down on me.
I looked up noticing Luke was holding me trying to calm me down.
"Shh. Nicole do you want me to call Mar or Cal and Mikey?" He asked rubbing my back.
"No, no just let me grab a sweatshirt and lets drive until I forget or fall asleep." I said getting up and wiping away the tears. Luke came down a few minuets later.
" I tried to put things back but I didn't know where everything went so.." I cut him off by hugging him and thanking him.
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Try Hard (Luke Hemmings)
Fanfiction"She may act like she doesn't know me but that won't be forever, I promise you that!" I stated not stuttering or stopping once cause its true. I had to have her. No. I need to have her.
