NICOLE POV
I sat on the couch with Michael and Calum on either side of me. They skipped school to take care of me. Amara would have as well but today was Luke's first day and she wanted to help him and catch up.
I had my leg resting up in the recliner with ice on it. I was pretty swollen. I had a fat lip a black puffy eye and the doctor told me I had a sprained ankle and a factored rib. See what a strong quarter back can do to a weak little idiot like me. Calum spent the night last night refusing to leave me because my brother was out. I knew why he really did though. He thought I would cut. And I probably would have if he didn't walk in every time I tried. I got one in when he walked in once and he started screaming and freaking out cleaning it before running away to dispose of it.
"You guys are the best." I muttered as Michael handed me a bag from Panera.
"Nicole we really do need to talk about this." Calum said looking me straight in the eyes.
"Ok talk." I muttered while eating Mac and Cheese.
"You have to tell someone. It is getting way to out of hand." he said raising his voice a little.
" Tell who exactly? I don't know if you have realized but no one gives a shit about the outcaster who's family died. But wait she does have her alcoholic brother who tells her she's a no good slut. Wait she must have had to grow up fast having to raise her younger brother's and sister's right? Nope her 13 year old sister committed suicide after her alcoholic brother killed her 3 year old sister in a drinking and driving accident after her dad died. But what about your 7 year old brother? Nope he died with your sister she kinda took both there lived slitting her throat while driving under age and driving off the bridge. But then again at least she video taped it for you to watch over and over again. It her fault to for going out with her jackass boyfriend. So now she's left alone in this huge house with tons of money to share with her brother, who yes did kill her sister and is never home cause he's either getting drunk or fucking his girlfriend. So honestly tell who you want but people just think I am some messed up chick with emotional problem so they probably won't care." I screamed tears streaming down my face I stood up trying to make a point but after I finished I collapsed on the floor crying harder then I have in weeks.
"Nik, shhh I am sorry just forget it okay." Calum said sitting me on his lap stroking my hair. I sobbed for a long time blaming myself.
"I'm sorry Hope and Porter and I am so sorry Elena that I wasn't there to help you I should have been there. It's all my fault. I'm going to hell for this." I yelled through sobs.
"Mommy I'm sorry I failed you. I did so bad. I lost all of them, It's all my fault. I wish I could still be your little girl. But I don't deserve to. I don't deserve to be happy." I cried harder. Its true I failed my whole family. I didn't deserve good friends. I didn't deserve this help. I should be rotting in hell.
"Hey! You look at me right now." Calum said lifting my head to look at him." None of this is your fault. You didn't kill one of them. You tried so hard Nik. You did. You went to have fun and you couldn't have stopped her. Or any of them. Shane would have killed you if you fought back. He took Hope and you chased after him and it was to later it's not your fault." He pulled me into a hug and my crying slowed down.
"Thank you. For everything. But Cal. I killed them all and I have to live with that." I said whipping away my tears and telling him how it was.
"Nik come here right now." Amara and Luke had just entered and I didn't even notice. Luke looked so uncomfortable but super sad as well. As soon as he heard that and saw my beat up face his smile faded away.
"Wait you can't walk." Amara stated and walking over to me, "You didn't kill them and I know it hurts but you can't not live your life because you blame yourself for this okay? I love you so much babe and I hate seeing you sad." she pulled me into a hug and told me it would all be okay. I looked at Luke and he mouthed sorry before sitting on one of our huge couches.
I settled down and sat down next to Cal and Mikey again. My house was huge. Mikey called it my kingdom or my mini mansion. My parents were extremley wealthy and we had a huge house. And like 7 beautiful cars. But I would trade it all to have my family back. I would live on the street to get them back.
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LUKES POV
"Luke you can't say that to anyone especially her" Amara yelled pacing around her room.
"And why the hell not?" I asked it wasn't fair she didn't have a say in what I did.
"Did you see her in there? She obviously doesn't need the stress of a boy in her life. Luke I know you heard that last sentence but I can't and won't explain that to you cause it is not for me to tell. Also you just met the girl yesterday you barley even know her and you're telling me you have a thing for her?!" Amara was practically screaming now.
"Mar, keep your voice down if Michael or Calum hear that would be terrible." I hushed covering her mouth.
"Its not like they're sitting in her room listening to our conversation." she snapped back.
"Okay, okay. I understand what you're saying. I will just start with being friends with her and get to know her and I will report back. Okay?"
"Fine" she started laughing as I marched out of her huge house over to mine. All the houses in this neighborhood were huge. Amara lived right next to Nicole with Calum two houses down from her and Michael across the street from Calum and I lived across the street from Mar. The neighborhood had what you would call Mini-Mansions. The houses were each different and beautiful with huge yards and about 4 lambo's per driveway. Nicole definitely had the biggest house.
I walked into my house and went down two stair cases before entering my room. Yes i choose this room in the second basement so I could play guitar and sing at any hour without being heard or yelled at. I grabbed my phone following Nicole on every social before texting her.
me: Hey Nicole, it's Luke. Just wanted you to know I hope you feel better and if you need anything give me a call.
Nicole: Aw thanks Luke. Sorry if i scared you with my mental break down earlier.
me: Not at all (:
Nicole: i know this is kinda weird but i need to get out and Mikey and Cal are at soccer and Mar tutoring, wanna do something?
me: Yeah for sure. Turn on that charm.
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Try Hard (Luke Hemmings)
Fanfiction"She may act like she doesn't know me but that won't be forever, I promise you that!" I stated not stuttering or stopping once cause its true. I had to have her. No. I need to have her.
