Life Is Just Not Kind - Final Book

Chapter 65

- MIHLALIKAZI MBANA TSHAWE

The doctor comes out of the room, Yoza is holding me as tight as she possibly can, I'd say i'm hoping for a different update than what I just witnessed with my own eyes. I stood there and watched my husband take his final breath

"Mrs Tshawe"

He starts off, I look at him

"I want to see my husband"

I say

"Hla..."

I shake my head so that Yoza doesn't even finish whatever she wants to say

"I want to see my husband..... please"

I plead the last part with the little voice I have and the little energy I have, the doctor sighs and nods to Yoza. She lets go of me and I follow the doctor inside the room. I look at everyone else that is here and they take that as a hint to get out. I slowly walk over to the bed his lifeless body lays on, unlike when I came in earlier his chest was heaving slowly as someone who was alive but there's not even a sign of that this time around. His chest is not even moving anymore, just like that he's gone. He's left me too. I reach the table and look at his beautiful face. My handsome husband's face, my Chocky.

"Why would you do this to me Bandile? I thought you loved me, you promised me"

I say as tears stream down my cheeks

"You made a promise to me that you will be with me and the triplets every step of the way. I can't do this without you"

I says with my voice cracking and words barely even coming out from my tight chest

"Why would you do this to me Bandile?"

I cry out

"I'm all alone"

I say sobbing, my knees alone feel weak and I can barely carry my own weight. The love of my life is gone, my forever is dead along with my kids

"How could you leave me now Bandile?"

I cry out holding onto the bed for balance because I don't trust my legs to carry me. I look at his handsome face ruined by the car crash, even with scars he still looks handsome as ever. I get onto the bed and lay my head on his chest and just cry my lungs out. I think I need to hear it from his chest in order to actually believe he's really gone. There's no heartbeat to listen to, his hands lay on either side of his body instead of playing with my hair, he's none responsive to me laying on him. How I would give everything I have to hear him say "Bhabha ndiyakuthanda".

"How could you leave me?"

I ask crying out

"Mrs Tshawe you need to return to bed"

Someone says disturbing my moment with my husband. I don't respond

"Mrs Tshawe please, for the sake of the kids you are carrying"

She says

"What about the ones I've lost?"

The words just slip right out of my mouth, she doesn't respond, I get off and kiss his parted dry lips

"I love you"

I whisper and then head towards the door where Yonela stands together with the nurse that spoke. I take a deep breath and then slowly let it out

"I want to see my babies"

I say looking at Yonela, she takes a deep breath and then lets it out

"Hlali I don't think you want to do that"