I Still Need You (Sometimes)

~9~

*Tw: Ed, SH*

4 years prior -Dazai age 14-

"Mori, I'm sorry-"Dazai tried in a raspy and pained voice but was stopped by another slap across his face.

He was currently strapped to an operating table in Mori's office. He was trembling as he layed there almost unable to move due to the pain. "after the assassination of the old boss, you have no right to kill yourself yet!" Mori growled grabbing the needle and suture thread. "not until your testimony has made me the new boss! You have a job to do so suck it up" he concluded chillingly.

Mori had found Dazai in his bathroom bleeding out from a deep gash to his neck. He held a knife in his hand as he sat there with his eyes closed and a sad smile on his face. The slash was deep enough that it would have killed him if Mori hadn't found him when he did.

Dazai had just witnessed something no child ever should. Cold blooded murder. He was scared and delt with his pain and fear in a way he had grown used to.

"Mori-i, I'm-m so-sorry" he was pleading through tears. Mori was a scary man in general, so a to 13 year old boy who had just upset him, he was terrifying. Dazai had heard the sound of gunshots and seen the bodycounts on charts. He knew what Mori could do. "you have nothing to be afraid of Dazai. Nothing at all" he said with a smile but there was poison behind that facade.

Even though Mori was a trained doctor and medical professional, he still liked to experiment on live test subjects. A sick and twisted man with a sick and twisted hobby. Seemingly he only did it to Dazai after a suicide attempt as a gorm of payback of sorts. "This will only be a little sting" Mori said Taking the needle and injecting a "safe" amount of a mixture of hypertension and hypotension medications right into Dazai's upper right arm.

Mori was right, it did only sting a little bit. Right before he could feel his heart leave his chest and his body go numb with pain. His vision was blurry, he had been so fucked up on the drugs that he didn't even realize the screaming coming from his mouth, right before he blacked out.

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3 years prior -Dazai age 15-

"Chuuya please don't-" Dazai ordered but it was too late. They had been working together as partners for about 4 months at this point. "Chuuya! You can't just go off the rails like that! Mori will kill you" he yelled. They were currently cleaning out an organization that had been shoving their noses in port mafia business. Mori wanted to keep most of the soldiers as hostages but it seems Chuuya forgot that part of the mission. After one of them called him short he went ballistic and killed almost all the men.

"tough shit, I'm sure it'll be fine now c'mon and get our pickup" Chuuya said grabbing the two soldiers that have yet to be killed. This should be fine right?

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"can either of you two explain to me why there were only two soldiers brought back from your mission when I clearly stated I wanted most of them to be brought to me?" Mori asked in a cheery tone adorned with a fake smile. "well bo-" Chuuya began confidently but was cut off by Dazai before he could continue. "I gave him the order. They were more powerful than expected so I ordered Chuuya to kill them. My apologies boss" Dazai said looking right at Mori. Why had Dazai said that? "is this true, Chuuya?" Mori asked closing his eyes due to the smile on his face. Dazai looked at Chuuya with a demanding face that Chuuya understood. "yes sir, I did what I was ordered to in the moment" he said with less confidence this time looking at Mori with nervous eyes.

There was a long beat of silence. "alright. Chuuya, you may leave" Mori said waving a hand dismissively, opening his eyes he looked back at Dazai. "you, Dazai, stay back a bit mhm?" he added.