Secret Triangle | An ONF Fanfiction

Jaeyoung

I glanced at the light blue digital clock sitting on the kitchen countertop. It read 3 am. Why the hell did Seungjun wake us all up at this time? I was even having a pretty pleasant dream about puppies. But I guessed that since he woke us up, he had something important to tell us.
We sat at the unstable dining table in our kitchen. Yuto and I were staring at Seungjun waiting for him to spill the beans. But he just stayed silent, fiddling with his thumbs, his head low, staring at the rough, unpolished wooden surface of the table. Despite his dark brown hair being in the way, I could see a droplet of sweat formed on his forehead. I noticed it thanks to the moonlight which hit it from the right angle, making the light reflect off of it.
When Seungjun stays silent after intentionally getting our attention, you know it's not a light matter. I have to admit he had me pretty worried. I decided to give him a little push, hoping he'd finally unlock and speak freely.
"Seungjun, what's the matter? You look nervous... Don't worry to speak up, we're here to listen to you and help you."
Yuto nodded, letting Seungjun know he was there for him too.

I might look somewhat intimidating to those who first see me, but when it comes to my friends, I'm always ready to comfort them and do anything to make them feel better. You could say I have a soft heart. And I'm not afraid to show it. The toxic concept that all guys must be tough and cold is total bullshit.
When I saw Seungjun in that state, I felt the need to reassure him, to make him understand everything was okay, because he wasn't alone. He could share all his worries with us, we always tell each other. We have to support each other, especially in these hard times.

Soon enough, Yuto and I discovered that Seungjun's "problem" wasn't only his.

The wave of reassurance I hoped I could let out must have actually reached him, because he spoke just a few moments later. Yuto and I leaned in to carefully listen to each word, even though we knew it wasn't going to be a light discussion in the slightest. The heavy atmosphere that pervaded the room was visibly starting to make us nervous as well.

"I... I can't hide it anymore." Seungjun suddenly broke out in a higher pitch than usual. Then he went silent again.
I started sweating. Was he hiding something from us? I was dying to know what his secret was, but pressuring him would have only made it worse, so I stayed silent.
Shortly after, he resumed his speech.
"Guys... I'm so sorry. I have no idea how this happened but it did. And now I can only go forward."
Every muscle in my body contracted. I was about to spring up from all the tension I was accumulating. It was absolutely nerve-wracking. These long pauses were killing me, and Yuto wasn't doing much better. But we had to resist, we had to be patient.

Finally, after a solid 30 seconds that seemed like an eternity, Seungjun confessed his big secret to us:

"I have feelings for you."

I froze in place. My body let go of some tension, but I was totally unable to move.
He had feelings for one of us? I couldn't believe my ears. I was unable to process what I just heard. It felt unreal.
Since my mind had no idea where to start with unpacking this confession, I let it run wild. The first question that spontaneously came to me was: just who the hell was he referring to?
He glanced at me, then at Yuto, then at me again, and finally one last time at Yuto. He made one last statement, which totally differed from the two possible outcomes I had in mind and threw me for a loop.

"I have feelings for both of you."