Secret Triangle | An ONF Fanfiction

Jaeyoung

As if Seungjun's confession wasn't enough of a bolt out of the blue, Yuto added his own, violent gust of wind to this wonderfully terrifying whirlwind of emotions. I totally wasn't expecting something like this from either of them, but Yuto's confession is what shocked me the most. Seungjun has always been pretty playful and flirty even with his friends, and I'm not saying you would expect a confession from him, I totally didn't, but Yuto is another story.

Yuto has always been pretty shy and reserved, he's rarely touchy and although he loves receiving hugs, he's rarely the one to start physical contact. This doesn't necessarily mean he doesn't like us. His way of showing affection is simply different... Not physical, not verbal but... related to his actions. He smiles and laughs so often, and that makes me understand he's comfortable and he's doing well. He often wakes up before us to make breakfast for us. He often offers to clean the house or do other chores. That's how he shows his affection. He wants us to live a calm, relaxing life, without a single worry. And I admit, without him, our lives would probably be a mess. Trust me, you wouldn't want to live alone with Seungjun...

Yuto is like an angel who's always there to help you, even if you don't ask him for anything. And he never asks for anything in return. Which is most definitely one of his greatest qualities but also one of his biggest flaws. He's like a fresh loaf of bread, warm and soft... almost too soft. I feel like if he lived with other people who didn't care about him as much as we do, they could very well use him to their advantage, and treat him as nothing more than a robot who does all the work for them. I am so glad he found us. I would protect him with my own life, no matter what.

But one question had been bugging me for a long while... was he, and Seungjun for that matter, just a very close friend? Or was this insanely strong need to protect him, or better, both of them, a hint that there might be something else linking me to them?

Because I truly love them. I don't know in which way, but I do. I care about them more than I care about myself. And I've had a strange feeling that our friendship has always been a bit different than the one between Hyojin, Changyun and Minkyun. Or the one between us three and them.
At first, I thought it was just my impression. Maybe it was nothing and I was just being soft. But with time, these doubts about my feelings just kept growing and growing. Maybe these feelings changed a bit too. I started thinking about how I wouldn't mind kissing or cuddling with both Seungjun and Yuto. But I simply labeled these are intrusive thoughts and moved on. Even when they started becoming more and more frequent. And I thought I could live like this forever. But it got to a point where it was simply too hard to keep it all in. I became more touch-starved and more attention-seeking as time went on. And I was happy to grow even closer to both Yuto and Seungjun. I didn't know what I felt toward them. Hell, I'm still not sure how to describe it. But one thing was certain.

Our wasn't a simple friendship. It has never been.

With this sudden epiphany I had while sitting at our dining table at 3:15 am on that unforgettable night, I knew exactly what to answer when Yuto and Seungjun posed me their question in unison, their hearts on the same wavelength, waiting for me to fit the last piece of the puzzle and finally connect to them, bound my soul with theirs, forever.

"What about you, Jaeyoung?"

"I like you too. I want to be with you. With both of you."