Deceptive Love

~ Forty Six ~

TW: mention of an ED

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I woke up, my neck hurts so bad. I winced in pain as I rubbed my eyes and sat up on the couch. The album on my chest slipped off my hoodie into my chest. I placed it on the coffee table. My gut felt heavy, I got off the couch my vision blurred and distorted. But I didn't want to eat. I walked into the bathroom relieving myself. I stood up and looked at my reflection. I have dark circles around my eyes and I've lost some fat in my face. I haven't eaten in like 3 days I think maybe more. I didn't even eat on the plane or the day I left. I guess it's the nerves but I don't know. I looked more paler. It's similar to what I looked like when I was not well. So many thoughts settled in my head like a recurring nightmare. All I want is my head to be empty, to be in Nico's arms and for him to tell me that everything is ok. But his in Italy and I'm here.

I got ready and into a pair of sports leggings and an oversized t. I sat on the dining table as I organised what was happening for tickets back to Italy as soon as possible. I came here for answers and that is all I need and now that I have them I'll be okay. The next cheapest one is midnight tonight. I just want to get out of here as soon as possible I'm so tired of being in America. With all of the lies and pain. 

A knock sounded at my door. I walked over lazily and opened it. A familiar scent of a fireplace standing there in a pair of grey trackies and black fitted t-shirt. He's hair messy. I looked up at the one person I have absolutely fallen for and couldn't help but just jump into him. I wrapped My legs around his waist and wrapped my arms around his neck. Nico held me tightly and I kissed him. Nico received the kiss and I could feel him smiling. I laughed. Nico walked into the apartment while holding me. Hi kicked it closed.I pulled back.

"Hi hi," I say smiling. 

I met those perfect dark eyes, "hey Miss Monroe."

Nico gave me a longing kiss then placed me down onto my feet. He looked around and I realised my apartment probably looks like a mess. Nico looked down at me and touched the side of my face a little concern written on his face

I realised, I probably look like a mess, "I'm so sorry, I probably look horrible."

Nico gave me a soft smile as he cupped both of my cheeks tilting them upwards and said, "Mia Monroe, don't ever think you look fucking horrible because every day you look fucking beautiful. I'm just fucking worried." I furrowed my eyebrows. "This lady called Dorothy, she called me through Cathalina, she told me that she was worried about you. That you don't look fucking well so I came as quick as possible. So Miss Monroe, I'm here for two reasons, for you and to talk to you also to protect you. So technically three things."

I don't want him to be worried about me, but a sense of safety and a burning sensation strangled me inside with a little happiness because all my life all I ever wanted was to not be lonely. When I'm around Nico I feel like I'm the only girl in the world.  

 Nico asked, "when was the last time you ate?"

I mumbled out looking at him, "I don't remember." I wasn't lying, I don't know if it's been 3 or 4 days, when I've got so much in my head and overwhelmed with emotions I start to forget the humans basic necessities. And normally I'm too tired to go through the process of eating.

Nico gave me a kiss to the forehead and whispered, "I'll make some food and then we can talk."

Nico let go and I said, "do you want me to help?"

"Nope you sit there relax and let me do something."

I smiled and said, "ok."

I sat down on the couch and read a part of a random book, every now and then I would look up at Nico as he made breakfast. He was cooking so much and I would smile here and then and then I would go back to reading my romance. Nico said, "breakfast is ready."