Bitter Sweet Love || Hanzo x Reader

Anger got the best of me

As the sun brightens up my room I opened my eyes, and sat up in my bed. I stretched until I felt ready to stand up. After making myself ready I walked into the kitchen. As usual Hanzo was already awake. He looked at me walk in and watched me making myself a cup of tea. Usually we wouldn't talk to each other, even though I would love to, but this time Hanzo started a conversation. "Where have you been last night? You left at a really late hour." He asked concerned. "I just needed some fresh air after everything that happened yesterday." I said and took a sip of my tea. "I understand." He mumbled with his normal serious tone. I knew he wasn't going to ask anything any further and that he was going to stay silent for the rest of the day. "Don't forget our Training in one hour." That's what he said before he was about to leave the kitchen. "I really don't feel like training today, I'm sorry Hanzo." I said as I was still a bit tired because of the events from yesterday. "I understand why, but we have to, you know that it's always dangerous as my wife.". As he said the word "wife" I could clearly hear a change in his voice, but not in a positive way more like he didn't like to call me that way. And without letting me answer he left.
I was angry, furious did he even care about me? How I felt after yesterday? I wasn't able to calm down, all I could think about was how I tried my best to be a good wife but he was still grieving about our parents decision. With all that anger boiling inside of me I remember the mans sentence from yesterday "...What really happened that day".
Hearing this again and again in my head was only getting me angrier. Was Hanzo really hiding something from me?
I made myself ready for the training still full of anger. I grabbed my katana and walked with fast steps towards the training ground, where Hanzo was already waiting for me. Seeing him made me clenche my hand around my Katana. I never was this angry at him before, but was it even reasonable for me to be this angry?
At the moment right now I didn't care, I just wanted to get over with the training.
Hanzo greeted me with a serious look and a formal nod. Normally I would training with some of the guards while Hanzo was teaching and advising me, while watching ever step of me. But not this time I thought, I had the urge to prove something to him. As Hanzo was about to call one of the guards over I stopped him. "I think I'll learn better, if you would fight against me." I said serious with a cold gaze. It have been a while since I last saw Hanzo fight with a Katana, since he would stick to his bow and arrow. He actually never touched one for a really long time. So maybe fighting against him, wasn't going to be this hard. But Hanzo didn't seem to realize I was serious, he chuckled and shook his head. "I would never fight against you." He said and looked at me with a slight smile on his face. But I drew my katana and braced myself for battle. "I didn't ask for a favor Hanzo. This wasn't a question, I'm serious.". His expression changed abruptly into disbelief. I thought he would still reject me but to my amazement, he grabbed one katana and faced me.
"This was your wish Y/n, so don't back off. Show me what I teached you." He said and I could clearly hear in his voice that he enjoyed this moment. For a few moments we just looked at each other, both in a fighting stance, anticipating what the other would do. Until we both rushed towards each other and our blades collided. Hanzo still kept eye contact with me while I began to regret my plan. I knew Hanzo could read my body language perfectly, and he knew that I had regrets but I wasn't going to give up. We started fighting, Hanzo easily parried every attack I made, while I had a hard time dodging his attacks. I was about to give up as all that anger I had before the training came back. I heard the sentence from yesterday again in my head. My blood started boiling again, and I started to put all my anger in that fight. Hanzo was surprised at my sudden mood change and had trouble to parrie the first attacks from me. His eyes widened as he looked me in the eyes and saw all my anger.
We had a heated fight and with every attack he blocked I only got angrier.
The fight came to an abrupt end when I almost injured Hanzo's arm with my katana.He looked at the cut in his sleeve at shock and then he looked back at me in horror. "What have gotten into you?!" Hanzo asked angry and I couldn't hold it back any longer. "What happened to Genji?! What happened on that day where you said he had left?" I asked frustrated and angry, I wanted an answer. I finally wanted to know if my guess is right. That Genji really was that man, that Genji came back after all this years.
Hanzo looked at me shocked, he started to look nervous and avoided any kind of eye contact. He didn't answer me, so I knew something was off. "Answer me!" I yelled out of frustration. Hanzo looked at the ground and clenched his fist. "I told you he left that day. He left you behind him, and maybe you should do the same." And with that he turned around and left.
I couldn't believe that he just said that.
But I wasn't angry at him, I actually felt regret. Was I wrong for doing him like that?
I mean it was his brother, so it was selfish of me to think he wouldn't miss him, that he was hiding something about him.
It took me a while until I realized that I had almost hurt him.
I should go to him and at least apologize for being like that or should I give him a few minutes? I left the training ground and walked back to my room. As I walked past Hanzos room I could hear a loud noise, like someone had hit something.
I really did upset him. I decided to knock on his door, to see if he would let me talk to him. It took a while until he opened the door and looked at me shocked but also angry. He was clearly not expecting me to come to him after what just happened. He didn't say anything, he just looked at me. "I came here to apologize for what I just did. I'm truly sorry and I hope you can forgive me." I said honest and tugged nervously at my sleeve. Hanzos gaze was slowly softening. "I forgive you. But tell me what makes you think i'm lying? Does this have anything to do with yesterday?" He asked leaning himself against the doorframe. "I just had a weird feeling meeting this man yesterday. I shouldn't have listened to him." I said and I could see how a questioning look formed on his face. "What did he tell you?" He asked. I really didn't want to talk about it, and I knew that another argument would start if I would tell him that I've met that man again later that night. "It's nothing. He probably just wanted to irritate me." I said hopping Hanzo wouldn't have anymore questions, so I was about to leave as he grabbed my arm and pulled me back. He looked at my throat and ran his thumb softly over the small cut I had gotten from yesterday.
I really don't understand him. In one moment he acts like he doesn't care about me and in the next one, he acts like he has all the love for me, that I always asked for.
"I didn't noticed that he hurt you.." he said sadly, like he was feeling bad. Like he regretted something. "It's nothing don't worry about it.". I don't know why but I carefully laid my hand on his, with which he was still gently stroking the cut. He stopped and looked me in the eyes. I was worried that I have gone to far, and instantly took a few steps back.
It was probably inappropriate for him, that I touched him like this, since he had no feelings towards me. "I'm sorry I think it's better if I'll go. I'll see you later." I said and walked away. I didn't let Hanzo any time to react or answer me, if he had something to say about what I just did, he could use his chance while we would eat dinner together. Until then I would spend my time as usual at my favorite place, while rethinking everything that had happened.