Rain POV
"I just feel like I am back at square one." Marq massaged my head. "I can tell he doesn't fuck with me and again, I am scared to talk."
"Don't do that baby, maybe you guy should just talk. Don't isolate yourself again, you are going to have to deal with it, I got your back."
"He has been he for two weeks and we been around eachother almost every day and have yet to speak."
" listen, I understand that, but like I told you with dealing with the rest of them when we came back. You are going to have to initiate the conversation. They were trying To contact you and never get an answer so now you have to put forth effort."
" I just wish I never did that shit." I sighed. "I honestly wish none of this shit happened. It's like I lost myself with all of that shit happened in the one time I made a decision for myself, it still feels like I did something wrong."
" you don't need to apologize for that, you needed a break. You could've communicated better. But never apologize for making decisions to protect yourself and better yourself. You didn't have any ill intent. But you had to get yourself together. If these are the relationships that you want in your life, it is just your turn to make effort. You have to deal with these things. And also remember you do not need everybody in your life." I nodded and he wiped my face. "Relax baby."
" I don't know, nothing feels the same anymore."
" that is what you wantEd, now it's time for you to reestablish yourself within the group. Set new boundaries, make new rules, have a new fun. take advantage of this. They are trying to figure out the new person you are, so create, whatever reality you want."
"Okay."
" do you want to stay in the house today?"
"Yeah." He kissed me.
" yeah, I think you need a break baby. You can figure everything out and then we can re-approach this."
I nodded.
***
Chris POV
"Okay, I understand. I hope you feel better soon." Nijay said into the phone. "Of course, I'll bring you guys some food back." She hung up.
"What's wrong?"
"Rain isn't having a good day." She sighed.
"Tom'e wanted to speak with her." I shrugged.
"Yeah, she seems more withdrawn again. She is probably trying to avoid confrontation."
"I don't know but she speak to him and he doesn't even speak back. They are better than that, that is what I explained to him."
"Yeah, he is so petty." She shook her head.
"He know damn well he is making her uncomfortable." She chuckled and shook her head. "They just need to talk about it. He is hurt or in his feelings."
"On a better note, he like Chrissy alot." I laughed. "I like her too."
"Because you like yourself."
"I am not self centered."
"No you are not but you do vibe alone because you love your own vibe and you feel like she can match it."
"Yeah. She is just like me." She smiled and I laughed. "The way he looks at her, he seems so infatuated by her. He flirts so smoothly though, she doesn't even notice. It's funny watching them interact though. He is just like you, you raised him good baby, he is a great kid."
"Thank you, I tried and then we got separated but so he learned a lot of shit on his own."
"So half and half?" I nodded. "You are so beautiful baby."
"Thank you baby."
***
"I swear to god."
"Nah bro I ain't gone lie, you are submissive. He likes to be controlled, he loves that shit." Tom'e laughed. "Even with what's her face... um Rain, she had his ass in a chokehold. Now Nijay forces him to take control and he just be so confused."
"I don't know man, I ain't used to having to move for two people. I just go with the flow. I am not submissive, I just rather follow her lead but she flips the tables on me because she becomes submissive and very girly just soft and ditsy around me. She never pay attention, she is so clumsy and lost. She expects me to protect and I love that shit for some reason. She just make me feel, I don't know how to explain... So now I am training myself to lead." E nodded understanding
"That shit should come easy to you. He used to really be on his toes when we was growing up. He as always had to think and move for the both of us and I just followed him." Tom'e shrugged. "You smart as shit and you can spot a wrong move a mile away. You would never lead any of us done the wrong road." I dapped him up.
"Thank you man."
"Fassure."
"Dee come on!" Bahia yelled. "I don't wanna go down the slide again!"
"Why not?" We laughed.
"Dee I will take you to the park another time! We are here to watch a movie."
Today we are doing a drive up movie. Chrissy find and invited all of us. Some movie called Faults of our stars or some shit.
***
"What?" Nijay covered her face.
I already knew what was coming.
"That is so sad." She started bawling.
"Baby it's just a movie." I rubbed her back.
"No because she was supposed to die first. He seemed so normal." I pulled her to me and she continued to cry silently.
"This is so sad."
"Why are you crying?" Tom'e sighed. "Baby you know you ugly cry." They laughed and he wiped her face carefully.
"Damn this is sad as fuck though." Malika shook her her.
"Sad as hell. Mmm." Bahia backed it.
"He was all pale and shit." We all look at Dee. "What? he was..." he shrugged and went back to eating his popcorn.
"Plot twist." Bahia whispered. "She pregnant."
"And the baby won't have a dad." Nijay cried even harder. "That is so sad."
"Girl... you are such a fucking cry baby."
"She cried watching fatherhood."
"That was actually a sad ass movie though." Chrissy jumped in.
"Can y'all shut the fuck up, we are watching a movie." E groaned. "Y'all been talking the whole time."
"Shut up, don't talk to me." Nijay snapped at him. "I hate you." He gasped.
"You hate me?"
"I'm sorry." He stared at her.
"You okay?" He asked and she nodded. "You sure?"
"Yes, the movie is so sad."
"You are so sad." He replied.
"I am happy, just dramatic. See." She smiled and we laughed.
"Shaking my head." He mugged her. "You are sick."
