The Heart Knows

Chapter 25: Falling Again

FLUKE
I spend most of time either at the café or with my best friend Earth. I have told him about my 'date' with Ohm and how the food truck owner told me about the times Ohm and I used to go there from time to time.

"What if your heart directed you there, Fluke? The food truck owner is right. Maybe your heart still knows", Earth says as he takes my hand and soothes it. We are sitting on one of the tables in the corner at my café. Earth frequently visits me here whenever he's free. Sometimes alone, and sometimes with his boyfriend Kao. The two are polar opposites. Kao is more reserved and doesn't say much and my Cooheart on the other hand, loud, outgoing and potty-mouthed. I wonder how they got together because the two of them are completely different from one another. I suppose they balance each other out. Opposites attract, I guess.

"I don't know, Coo. Maybe it was just a coincidence that we ended up there", even I can't explain how we ended up there. I couldn't remember, but there was this sense of familiarity about it. Not being able to remember is really frustrating.
"OK, but how was the date? Tell me everything", Earth asks excitedly.
"It wasn't really a date, Coo. We just went out for a drive, but if you must know, it was good. P'Ohm was an amazing companion. Gentle, caring and thoughtful. Not once did he make me feel uncomfortable". Wait why I am saying this so dreamily. What's happening to me. Earth is looking at me suspiciously.

"Are you sure you have amnesia. If I didn't know any better, I'd say you like my brother", Earth teases.
"Oh, Earth. Come on it's nothing like that", I say in my defense. Earth takes hand again as it relaxes on the table.
"Would it be so bad to fall in love with him again, Fluke. It's not a crime to open up your heart to him, you know. You guys are engaged to each other. There's a reason for that. I know if you look deep down in your heart you'll realise there's a special place there for him, Fluke. You must give love a chance", Earth says, almost pleading to me.
"I am scared, Coo. I do not not remember my life with him. I wish and pray everyday to regain my memory. I feel so guilty towards him because of it. I see his face everyday and I see the hurt in his eyes whenever he looks at . This hurts me inside too. There is nothing I wish more than to see him happy because he's been nothing but good to me", I say as I wipe the wetness on my cheeks. I didn't even realize I was crying.

"Oh, my Flukie, the reason you feel this way is because you obviously care about him a great deal. It may take some time for you to regain your memories. But please do not push him away in the process. I'm not saying this because P'Ohm is my brother. I'm saying this because I know he loves you a great deal. I know he'd wait for you to regain your memories, even if it takes you a lifetime. Hell, he will even wait for you in the next lifetime too", Earth says this as he wipes the tears off my eyes. Him saying this gives me a bit of courage. I want to get my memories back. A part of me is missing and I don't like this feeling.

OHM
I had a meeting with the detectives. They were briefing me on Fluke's case. They said they were 'monitoring' the suspect, but he seemed to have disappeared. I will let them think that for a bit. I will release him to them when I'm ready. He's starting to sing like a canary now, thanks to my special methods and police buddy's men. Those guys do not mess around.

I get to the café and the first person I look for is my baby. It looks like he has a visitor today. My little brother Earth is here with him. It looks like they are having an intense conversation. It seems Fluke is crying because Earth is comforting him. I just wish I could hold him and tell him that I love him and that everything will be OK. What's holding me back is the fact that I do not want to make Fluke uncomfortable. Sometimes I just wish I could trade places with Earth. I make my way to their table and Earth is the first one to see me.

"Phi, you're here. Where have you been?", I look at Fluke who gives me a sad smile. I smile back at him. I want to hug him, but I know I need to control myself.
"I was just busy with with something", I replied looking at Earth. He just nods. Earth already knows what I have been up to. I asked him not to tell Fluke because I did not want to worry and stress him out.
"Fluke, you look a little tired. Why don't you let Phi take you home to rest? ", Earth says to Fluke who seemed surprised at first. Earth had to convince him to come with me by saying that he and Sam will look after the café.

"Ohm! Hi! So good to bump into you here".
What the fuck! I'm trying to keep my cool here, but my patience is running thin. I look at Fluke, who looks back at me with unease. "Back off Selene!!" I warn her almost in a gritted - teeth whisper because she pisses me off. I take Fluke's hand and brings him close to me.
"But Ohm, I-I just..." she tries to speak, but I give her a warning look and she backs away. I take Fluke to my car, get him settled in the shotgun seat. I look at him, but he doesn't look at me.
"Do you know that woman, P'Ohm? Is she a friend of yours?" Fluke asks me with his voice low and sad.
"Yes, I know her, and no, she's not my friend. Not even close", I say this looking at Fluke hoping he'd look at me too. I can see he want to say something but something is stopping him. I start the car and we drive home in silence. We got home and Fluke jumps out of the car and runs inside and straight to his room. Damn it. The last thing I want for Fluke is to be hurt and sad, and now certain people seem to not understand that. The people who dared to make Fluke this way are surely going to pay.
I take my phone and dialled a number. "Boun, it is time" I say as soon the call is unswered and then hang up. Boun is the police buddy who's been helping me with information. He's connected me with his 'special' friends, the men who captured the culprit. The same men who've been giving some special treating to my captive friend.

Right now, I need to make sure Fluke is alright

FLUKE
They know each other. The same woman who's been coming to the café. All she does when she comes is order a coffee and glares at me and scoffs. I had a bad feeling about her from the get go. Something about her was just off. She made me feel uncomfortable in my own space. Could it be her? The woman that Ohm is probably seeing? Just the thought stirs my heart and not in a good way. The thought of Ohm being with someone else hurts me more than I thought it would, but why? Why am I feeling this way?

I can't take the ache in my heart, so the moment we got home I jumped off the car and ran to my bedroom and melt onto the floor. I don't want Ohm to see me cry. Now here I am, in my bedroom crying and questioning my heart. Was Earth right? Am I falling for Ohm? Why else would I be feeling this way? I hate this feeling and I want it to go away. I wipe my tears away as I try to gain some composure, but it's all in vain. Why does my heart feel this way?

As I continue to cry, I hear a soft knock on the door, but I say nothing. I can't see Ohm right now. I just want to wallow in my own misery alone.
"Fluke, I'm gonna open the Door, OK? I'm coming in", the voice outside says. I stay quiet, but Ohm opens the door and comes inside my bedroom. He finds me on the floor drowning in my own tears.

"Hey, hey, baby, please don't cry like this. I'm sorry. I know this is my fault. Selene means nothing to me. I only love you. Please don't cry" Ohm says cupping my face, full of snot and tears, with his hands and wiping my tears with his thumbs.
"I'm sorry, P'Ohm, I don't even know why I'm crying, but my heart hurts. It hurts a lot, P'Ohm and I don't know what to do to make it stop", I say wailing with snotty nose to top it off.
"Fluke, look at me. I'm here and I'm not going anywhere. Please stop crying, baby", Ohm sadly says. He said he loves me. The words ever so soothing and calming.
"P'Ohm?" I call him.
"Hmm", he answers.
"Can you hold me now, please?" Gosh, I'm pathetic, aren't I. Here I am, an emotional mess begging Ohm to hold me. Ohm takes me into his arms and holds me tight, rubbing my back.
"Can you carry me to bed please P'Ohm", I ask him and without saying anything he scoops me up bridal style and carries me to bed. There it is. That familiar feeling again. Safe zone, home.

Am I falling?