THE HAPPIEST GIRL | JENLISA

Chapter 29

Jennie

"You do know if Hyun-suk finds out that you're here without Don, you're as good as dead, right?" I say, shutting my front door behind us and hanging up my keys on the rack.

"Eh." Lisa shrugs nonchalantly. "What's he going to do? Fire me?" she jokes, toeing off her shoes and setting them next to the door.

No, but he may fire me.

She saunters over to my couch, plopping down and making herself at home. Turning on my TV, she looks over at me expectantly. "Friends?"

"Sure. While you find the episode we're on, I'm going to change into my sleep clothes." I inform her, already walking to my room.

When I turned around to pick her up at the back of the hotel, she had changed into some basketball shorts and a t-shirt, what she normally wears to bed. I can't believe I turned around and brought her back here. If Hyun-suk finds out, I'm dead. But somehow I couldn't say no to Lisa. And truth is, I hate being alone. I really hate the feeling. I think because I grew up so close with my dad and the boys, I'm so used to always having someone around. I'm used to being around people twenty four seven and being on the go.

Honestly, I'm kind of glad Lisa is staying with me tonight so I won't be alone. I think being alone in my own house would really hit me hard and give me a hollow feeling. Sure, this place is my home and I love it, but it wouldn't fully feel like home without the guys or someone here with me. I think my fear and uneasy feeling of being alone stemmed during my parents' divorce and the move to Nashville.

When we moved to Nashville, my dad, Jin, and Suga got a moving truck and loaded most of our stuff in it. They drove down here a couple days ahead of me and the rest of the boys to set up. I stayed behind because someone had to drive the van down here, and my dad didn't trust the other boys to drive it. We didn't go down at the same time because Andy and Travis had to pack up the rest of their things and they wanted to bid their families goodbye.

During those few days before moving, my mom refused to talk to us. She didn't want to be around while we packed up and left. She decided to leave and stay with my aunt instead of spending my last few days in Ohio with me. I understand it was hard on her and that she didn't want to see or be around my dad, but she didn't even want to look at me or Jin either. She didn't even tell us goodbye and that hurt the most.

I know she was angry about us leaving, but she could have come with us. She should have come with us. Instead, she just asked for a divorce and didn't even care about what we wanted or cared to hear us out. The last few days back when I was in Ohio, in my childhood home, I was all alone. The silence was deafening and everything felt empty. Sure, a lot of our stuff was packed and sent to Nashville, making the house physically empty, but my chest felt emptier. For the first time in my life I felt... alone.

Out of all the things I resent my mother for, that ranks as number one. No matter how many times I tried to call her those last few nights to have her home with me, she never answered my calls. I know that she was mad. I know she was upset at us for chasing our dreams, but at the end of the day she was still my mom and I needed her.

Shaking the memories from my head, I quickly change into some sleep shorts and a t-shirt, brushing my teeth before meeting back up with Lisa on the couch.

Halfway through the first episode of Friends, my phone dings, signalling a new text message.

Suga: Does this pregnancy make me look fat?

There's a photo sent with the text that makes me laugh. The photo is a selfie that Suga took with the camera casted downward to capture his stomach that he was jutting out, resting his hand over it like most pregnant women do.