THE HAPPIEST GIRL | JENLISA

Chapter 76

Lisa

Clouds of smoke swirl around me from the numerous hits of the blunt being passed around. It's passed to Kaia who has perched herself in my lap, and she takes a long drag. She lazily throws her head back, exhaling a cloud of smoke before offering the joint to me.

I glare at her, while vigorously shaking my head, refusing to partake in it. You would think that she'd know better. Only a few months out of rehab and here I am, surrounded by drugs and alcohol once again.

I never wanted a huge album release party. I would have been completely contented with sitting at home, relying on social media and my team to do all the promoting for me, but Hyun-suk insisted on having a full out party. He said it would get me more press, and therefore more sales.

I would've thought that this being my first album in three years, and all the hell that I've been through, would be enough to make people want to buy it. But what do I know, right?

When I first learned about this party, I requested that there would be no alcohol served, but Hyun-suk said guests would view that as cheap and he figured that I'd be able to handle it.

I was also good with not seeing Taehyung again anytime soon. But here he is, invited to my party.

Out of poor judgment, I started hanging out with Taehyung a couple of years ago. I used to not be able to stand him, most of the time now, I still can't. For a while, I guess you could call us friends, but really I was only using him to get drugs and alcohol to cope.

Taehyung was the one who initially introduce me to drugs. Alcohol was something that I was already using on my own. After Jennie left, I started going to parties which Hyun-suk forced me to go to where I ran into Taehyung and we connected. And by connected, I mean we started getting high together.

Besides Taehyung, another great influence which I had at the time was my father. While we were never the closest, we finally seemed to reconnect due to our unhealthy habits and coping mechanisms. My dad has never been the best father figure. Not that my mother doesn't have her flaws, too. My parents have always took advantage of and abused my fame. They let my fame get to them, not acting like my parents anymore. It only seemed like they were around to take advantage of all the perks that I was getting.

Before the fame, we weren't well off. My parents spent most of their time working to keep us stable. My grandma seemed to be my primary care giver, babysitting me to help lighten my parents' load. I didn't see them much as a kid, but when the fame hit, it seems as though I couldn't spend a minute without them around. It would be one thing if I felt like they were around for me, but I've always felt like they were more interested in the money.

As my fame grew, so did my father's ego. He decided to make a name for himself, starting up his own liquor company. This caused him to start drinking more and spiralling out of control. He started excessively partying and cheating on my mom, causing her to feel the need to cheat on him, too, and try to make a bigger name for herself.

It's no wonder why my parents hate each other. All they do is try to get even, only to end up trying to outdo each other in the end, making their feud a never ending vicious cycle.

Why don't they just get a divorce you may ask? Because that will ruin the image of our 'perfect little family'. My parents are only together to try to uphold our reputation as per the request of my PR team, even though many media outlets have already caught on that my father has been cheating on my mother for years. Nevertheless, Hyun-suk always pushes for the false illusion of our family to uphold my golden popstar image.

"C'mon, man. Relax." Taehyung drawls, referring to me not taking a hit. He's lazily slouched back in his seat, letting whatever substances that he's consumed take over his body.