Letters to Niall

two

dear niall,

today i walked past the old flower shop on north street. i said hello to the nice lady that worked there and looked around until i stumbled upon some white daisies. they made me think of when you gave me a whole bunch of white daisies for my birthday.

i felt on top of the world that day, with you by my side. it was like nothing could break us down, but I guess nothing lasts forever.

okay, i can't keep this in anymore; niall I'm falling apart. i need you. you were my rock, the foundation to my house. without you, my world is crumbling down. i can't live without you.

you're the only one who understands what i have gone through.

i don't just want you back,

i need you.

you may not love me anymore, but i just can't let go of you.

you promised you would fix me. you promised you would be there for me and help me through this. you promised to never let me fall, but i guess you couldn't keep that promise because i was falling hard for you. you have no idea how much i craved to see your smile every single day. you have no idea how many times i just wanted to shut you up and kiss you while you were in the middle of a sentence. you have no idea how hard i was falling; i didn't even know it myself.
but you promised.

it feels like any day now i will just break apart. i'm hanging by a thread over a cliff, and i can feel the thread unwinding a tiny bit every single day.

i don't go a day without thinking about you; what you would've said if this or that happened.

but i doubt you feel like i do, since you did leave without saying goodbye. and i will tell you, a note is not a proper goodbye. a note full of promises of keeping in touch and calling me every single day just added to the aching inside me. the worst thing is that you promised. it sounds child-like, but i do believe promises are meant to last forever; or i guess they were made to be broken.

i'm so happy for you, but at the same time it hurts. it hurst everywhere and i can't think straight.

i had lost everyone, you were all that i had left, and now you're gone...

i just can't cope without you

i miss you.

forever yours,
addison

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so sorryy for the short chapter. I promise the next ones will be longer.

ALSO: I know I don't have a lot of reads right now, but I just wanted to say the people that are reading my book right now, you're the real MVPs because I couldn't have don't any of this without all of you.

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lots o love

-em