Letters to Niall

six

dear niall,

how could you do that to me? i saw you, and i know you saw me. i walked into the old record shop that you and i loved to visit and there you were, flirting with the girl at the register. i looked at you and you just stared at me in shock as the girl tried to sneakily pull her shirt down even more than before, trying to show even more of her cleavage.

what are you even doing here? aren't you supposed to be on some tour?

god, are you that kind of guy now? do you flirt with any girl you set eyes on? i can't believe i said all of those things about you; how you were polite, sweet, and caring, but really your a fucking bastard who is just like any other self-absorbed celebrity.

but the thing is, i still love you. i hate myself every minute because of it, but i do. i hate how my heart flutters every time you speak. i hate how every time someone ever mentions your name, it brings a smile to my face. i hate how you make me feel a certain way, with your cheeky smirk or kind smile. i hate it. i absolutely hate it.

i want to hate you, but deep inside i really can't. I wish that i could make my heart realize how much you hurt me, but it just won't let go of you.

im starting to accept that you never loved me.
and it's sad because i don't think you see how beautiful you are to me. your face was the light that chased away the shadows, every nightmare, every fear. but you burned out and now im learning to be afraid of the dark once again...

i miss you.

forever yours,
addison

____________________________________________

okay so I've been thinking I'm probably just going to tell the whole story through letters. idk I just feel like it would be weird transitioning from letters to the actual setting.

oh and I'm probably going to put there interactions in the book so don't be like 'why would she repeat what she said to him?' it's because she doesn't expect him to read the letters, it's a way to calm her emotions I guess.

questionnnnnssss

would you rather live in the city or countryside?

I've told a lot of people this but I want to live in the city really bad. I don't know why, I just do. and also the countryside seems a little boring to me.

comment your answers!

don't forget to follow//vote//comment// maybe tell me if you think the boys are breaking up (IM NOT SAYING I WANT THEM TOO BUT IM ASKING WHAT DO YOU THINK IS GOING TO HAPPEN)

lots o love

-em