four

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by cuddlyirwinx

by cuddlyirwinx

dear niall,

upset wouldn't quite explain the emotions i'm feeling right now. it's more like embarrassed, disappointed, ugly, and mostly hurt.

sure, i knew that you'd move on some day, but i guess i wasn't as mentally prepared as i had thought. of course you'd have a model as a girlfriend instead of me. she's so skinny and beautiful while i'm over here looking like a fat potato.

so that's why i've decided to stop eating. i mean, it's the fastest way that i can lose weight. there's just too much fat, and it bothers me. it's not like i need food, and besides, everyone at school calls me fat anyway. i know i promised you that i wouldn't do that again, but i guess we both broke our promises. i suppose you think mine is more serious, but in the end, they both hurt me.

I sound like a paranoid teenage girl, but i guess that's what i am.

a paranoid, broken, worthless, stupid, ugly, corrupted, damaged, sad, scared, and selfish girl.

i miss you.

forever yours,
addison

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Sorry for the short chapter! I'm also sorry if this seems a little boring, but I swear as the story unfolds it will get better.

Next chapter will probably be longer.

Please leave feedback, I would really really really appreciate it.

QUESTION TIME

what is your favorite song on the 'Four' album?

Damn you complicated questions :(

But right now I am obsessed with Once In A Lifetime. THEY HARMONIZE SO WELL TOGETHER IN THAT SONG. I am also in love with Ready To Run, Fool's Gold, 18, and basically the whole album tbh...

Comment your answers!

Don't forget to vote//comment//follow// or tell me your opinion on if Harry needs a haircut!? (I'm not saying he does or doesn't, just tell me what you think)

I love you

-em