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by cuddlyirwinx

dear niall,

i guess i've never really admired it until now, but the way you talk about your fans like each and every one of them is extremely special, is absolutely fascinating. i just want to be as kind-hearted as you. how do you do it? i just don't get it. i try, i really do, but people are just so cruel an vicious. all they really do is push you down, and genuinely for me, it's pretty hard to get back up.

I guess people don't know the true strength of their own words. it's weird because someone may say something and not even know what they mean by it, and it ends up remarkably hurting another person. words are just so powerful. that's mostly why i don't talk much anymore. i would never get over the thought of me hurting someone else with my own words. it's just painful to even think about. trust me, i generally know how it feels and let me tell you, it does not feel good.

i just really wish people's opinions didn't matter so much in this world. opinions are what keep us from being unique and different. i don't want to be told how to act because that's how everyone else is acting. other people's opinions should not define us.

i guess you're not like most of the stuck up pop-stars today, and i respect that. you were always that bright and fun person who wanted to help everyone. all i hope is that you at least tried to help me, but i guess no one wants to help a broken girl.

and that's all i really am

broken.

i miss you.

forever yours,
addison

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this chapter is dedicated to lindsay944 because her comments made my day and I appreciate the support.
(READ HER STORY TOO BC ITS AWESOME)

QUESTION TIME

what do you want to name your future kids?

okay I have a long answer sorry ...

so for girls either Vera, Blair, Arabella (Ella), Addison (Addi) ;), Layla, Cassandra (Casey), Makayla, Delaney, or Noelle. (I can't decide ugh)

and for boys either Landon, Eli, Miles, Asher, Finn, Braden, or Chandler

I don't want this many kids but here are just some names that I fell in love with. (besides I'm nowhere near to having kids lol)

comment your answers!

don't forget to vote// comment// follow// tell me why you think Zerrie broke up idk.

love you

-em